It might perhaps be carried further than was needful, but it was an
error of the right hand if it was an error, for by this she kept up the
reputation, such as it was, of her business, and obtained this
character, that though she did take care of the women when they were
debauched, yet she was not instrumental to their being debauched at
all; and yet it was a wicked trade she drove too.
While I was there, and before I was brought to bed, I received a letter
from my trustee at the bank, full of kind, obliging things, and
earnestly pressing me to return to London. It was near a fortnight old
when it came to me, because it had been first sent into Lancashire, and
then returned to me. He concludes with telling me that he had obtained
a decree, I think he called it, against his wife, and that he would be
ready to make good his engagement to me, if I would accept of him,
adding a great many protestations of kindness and affection, such as he
would have been far from offering if he had known the circumstances I
had been in, and which as it was I had been very far from deserving.
I returned an answer to his letter, and dated it at Liverpool, but sent
it by messenger, alleging that it came in cover to a friend in town. I
gave him joy of his deliverance, but raised some scruples at the
lawfulness of his marrying again, and told him I supposed he would
consider very seriously upon that point before he resolved on it, the
consequence being too great for a man of his judgment to venture rashly
upon a thing of that nature; so concluded, wishing him very well in
whatever he resolved, without letting him into anything of my own mind,
or giving any answer to his proposal of my coming to London to him, but
mentioned at a distance my intention to return the latter end of the
year, this being dated in April.
I was brought to bed about the middle of May and had another brave boy,
and myself in as good condition as usual on such occasions. My
governess did her part as a midwife with the greatest art and dexterity
imaginable, and far beyond all that ever I had had any experience of
before.
Her care of me in my travail, and after in my lying in, was such, that
if she had been my own mother it could not have been better. Let none
be encouraged in their loose practices from this dexterous lady's
management, for she is gone to her place, and I dare say has left
nothing behind her that can or will come up on it.