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"That was foolish. By-and-by somebody may come along who will tell him

the truth."

"What can any one tell him that he has not heard already? He has heard

everything, and put it all behind his back."

"Could nobody bring conviction to his mind? Nobody whatever? Not even

one who had no interest in slandering you?"

"You don't mean that you...."

"Why not? He has come between us. What could be more natural than that I

should tell him so?"

A look of dismay came over her face, and it was followed by an

expression of terror.

"But you wouldn't do that," she stammered. "You couldn't do it. It is

impossible. You are only trying me."

His face remained perfectly passive, and she seized him by the arm.

"Think! Only think! You would do no good for yourself. You might stop

the marriage--yes! But you wouldn't carry out your political purpose.

You couldn't! And while you would do no good for yourself, think of the

harm you would do for me. He loves me, and you would hurt his beautiful

faith in me, and I should die of grief and shame."

"You are cruel, my child," said the Baron, speaking with dignity. "You

think I am hard and unrelenting, but you are selfish and cruel. You

are so concerned about your own feelings that you don't even suspect

that perhaps you are wounding mine."

"Ah, yes, it is too bad," she said, dropping to her knees at his feet.

"After all, you have been very good to me thus far, and it was partly my

own fault if matters ended as they did. Yes, I confess it. I was vain

and proud. I wanted all the world. And when you gave me everything,

being so tied yourself, I thought I might forgive you.... But I was

wrong--I was to blame--nothing in the world could excuse you--I saw that

the moment afterwards. I really hadn't thought at all until then--but

then my soul awoke. And then...."

She turned her head aside that he might not see her face.

"And then love came, and I was like a woman who had married a man thirty

years older than herself--married without love--just for the sake of her

pride and vanity. But love, real love, drove all that away. It is gone

now; I only wish to lead a good life, however simple and humble it may

be. Let me do so!... Do not take him away from me! Do not...."