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'I have met him twice. Both times near home. Both times at night, when

I was going back. Both times I thought (though that may easily be my

mistake), that he hardly looked as if he had met me by accident.' 'Did

he say anything?' 'No; he only nodded and put his head on one side.'

'The devil take his head!' mused Clennam, still looking at the fire;

'it's always on one side.' He roused himself to persuade her to put some

wine to her lips, and to touch something to eat--it was very difficult,

she was so timid and shy--and then said, musing again: 'Is my mother at

all changed to you?' 'Oh, not at all. She is just the same. I wondered whether I had better

tell her my history. I wondered whether I might--I mean, whether you

would like me to tell her. I wondered,' said Little Dorrit, looking at

him in a suppliant way, and gradually withdrawing her eyes as he looked

at her, 'whether you would advise me what I ought to do.'

'Little Dorrit,' said Clennam; and the phrase had already begun, between

these two, to stand for a hundred gentle phrases, according to the

varying tone and connection in which it was used; 'do nothing. I will

have some talk with my old friend, Mrs Affery. Do nothing, Little

Dorrit--except refresh yourself with such means as there are here. I

entreat you to do that.' 'Thank you, I am not hungry. Nor,' said Little Dorrit, as he softly

put her glass towards her, 'nor thirsty.--I think Maggy might like

something, perhaps.' 'We will make her find pockets presently for all there is here,' said

Clennam: 'but before we awake her, there was a third thing to say.'

'Yes. You will not be offended, sir?' 'I promise that, unreservedly.'

'It will sound strange. I hardly know how to say it. Don't think it

unreasonable or ungrateful in me,' said Little Dorrit, with returning

and increasing agitation. 'No, no, no. I am sure it will be natural and right. I am not afraid

that I shall put a wrong construction on it, whatever it is.'

'Thank you. You are coming back to see my father again?' 'Yes.' 'You have been so good and thoughtful as to write him a note, saying

that you are coming to-morrow?' 'Oh, that was nothing! Yes.'

'Can you guess,' said Little Dorrit, folding her small hands tight in

one another, and looking at him with all the earnestness of her soul

looking steadily out of her eyes, 'what I am going to ask you not to

do?' 'I think I can. But I may be wrong.' 'No, you are not wrong,' said

Little Dorrit, shaking her head. 'If we should want it so very, very

badly that we cannot do without it, let me ask you for it.'