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There, the table was laid for his supper, and his old grey gown was

ready for him on his chair-back at the fire. His daughter put her

little prayer-book in her pocket--had she been praying for pity on all

prisoners and captives!--and rose to welcome him.

Uncle had gone home, then? she asked @ as she changed his coat and

gave him his black velvet cap. Yes, uncle had gone home. Had her father

enjoyed his walk? Why, not much, Amy; not much. No! Did he not feel

quite well? As she stood behind him, leaning over his chair so lovingly, he looked

with downcast eyes at the fire. An uneasiness stole over him that was

like a touch of shame; and when he spoke, as he presently did, it was in

an unconnected and embarrassed manner.

'Something, I--hem!--I don't know what, has gone wrong with Chivery.

He is not--ha!--not nearly so obliging and attentive as usual to-night.

It--hem!--it's a little thing, but it puts me out, my love. It's

impossible to forget,' turning his hands over and over and looking

closely at them, 'that--hem!--that in such a life as mine, I am

unfortunately dependent on these men for something every hour in the

day.' Her arm was on his shoulder, but she did not look in his face while he

spoke. Bending her head she looked another way.

'I--hem!--I can't think, Amy, what has given Chivery offence. He is

generally so--so very attentive and respectful. And to-night he was

quite--quite short with me. Other people there too! Why, good Heaven!

if I was to lose the support and recognition of Chivery and his brother

officers, I might starve to death here.' While he spoke, he was opening

and shutting his hands like valves; so conscious all the time of that

touch of shame, that he shrunk before his own knowledge of his meaning.

'I--ha!--I can't think what it's owing to. I am sure I cannot imagine

what the cause of it is. There was a certain Jackson here once, a

turnkey of the name of Jackson (I don't think you can remember him,

my dear, you were very young), and--hem!--and he had a--brother, and

this--young brother paid his addresses to--at least, did not go so far

as to pay his addresses to--but admired--respectfully admired--the--not

daughter, the sister--of one of us; a rather distinguished Collegian; I

may say, very much so. His name was Captain Martin; and he

consulted me on the question whether It was necessary that his

daughter--sister--should hazard offending the turnkey brother by

being too--ha!--too plain with the other brother. Captain Martin was

a gentleman and a man of honour, and I put it to him first to give me

his--his own opinion.