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Mr Arthur Clennam sat in the window of the coffee-house on Ludgate Hill,

counting one of the neighbouring bells, making sentences and burdens of

songs out of it in spite of himself, and wondering how many sick

people it might be the death of in the course of the year. As the hour

approached, its changes of measure made it more and more exasperating.

At the quarter, it went off into a condition of deadly-lively

importunity, urging the populace in a voluble manner to Come to church,

Come to church, Come to church! At the ten minutes, it became aware

that the congregation would be scanty, and slowly hammered out in low

spirits, They WON'T come, they WON'T come, they WON'T come! At the five

minutes, it abandoned hope, and shook every house in the neighbourhood

for three hundred seconds, with one dismal swing per second, as a groan

of despair.

'Thank Heaven!' said Clennam, when the hour struck, and the bell

stopped. But its sound had revived a long train of miserable Sundays, and the

procession would not stop with the bell, but continued to march on.

'Heaven forgive me,' said he, 'and those who trained me. How I have

hated this day!'

There was the dreary Sunday of his childhood, when he sat with his hands

before him, scared out of his senses by a horrible tract which commenced

business with the poor child by asking him in its title, why he was

going to Perdition?--a piece of curiosity that he really, in a frock and

drawers, was not in a condition to satisfy--and which, for the further

attraction of his infant mind, had a parenthesis in every other line

with some such hiccupping reference as 2 Ep. Thess. c. iii, v. 6 &

7.

There was the sleepy Sunday of his boyhood, when, like a military

deserter, he was marched to chapel by a picquet of teachers three times

a day, morally handcuffed to another boy; and when he would willingly

have bartered two meals of indigestible sermon for another ounce or

two of inferior mutton at his scanty dinner in the flesh. There was the

interminable Sunday of his nonage; when his mother, stern of face and

unrelenting of heart, would sit all day behind a Bible--bound, like her

own construction of it, in the hardest, barest, and straitest boards,

with one dinted ornament on the cover like the drag of a chain, and a

wrathful sprinkling of red upon the edges of the leaves--as if it, of

all books! were a fortification against sweetness of temper, natural

affection, and gentle intercourse. There was the resentful Sunday of a

little later, when he sat down glowering and glooming through the tardy

length of the day, with a sullen sense of injury in his heart, and no

more real knowledge of the beneficent history of the New Testament than

if he had been bred among idolaters. There was a legion of Sundays,

all days of unserviceable bitterness and mortification, slowly passing

before him. 'Beg pardon, sir,' said a brisk waiter, rubbing the table.

'Wish see bed-room?'