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"Well," he said, "what news, poor exile?"

"None."

"Nothing from Soames?"

"Nothing."

"I have let the flat for you, and like a good steward I bring you some

money. How do you like Paris?"

While he put her through this catechism, it seemed to him that he had

never seen lips so fine and sensitive, the lower lip curving just a

little upwards, the upper touched at one corner by the least conceivable

dimple. It was like discovering a woman in what had hitherto been a sort

of soft and breathed-on statue, almost impersonally admired. She owned

that to be alone in Paris was a little difficult; and yet, Paris was so

full of its own life that it was often, she confessed, as innocuous as a

desert. Besides, the English were not liked just now!

"That will hardly be your case," said Jolyon; "you should appeal to the

French."

"It has its disadvantages."

Jolyon nodded.

"Well, you must let me take you about while I'm here. We'll start

to-morrow. Come and dine at my pet restaurant; and we'll go to the

Opera-Comique."

It was the beginning of daily meetings.

Jolyon soon found that for those who desired a static condition of the

affections, Paris was at once the first and last place in which to be

friendly with a pretty woman. Revelation was alighting like a bird in

his heart, singing: 'Elle est ton reve! Elle est ton reve! Sometimes

this seemed natural, sometimes ludicrous--a bad case of elderly rapture.

Having once been ostracised by Society, he had never since had any real

regard for conventional morality; but the idea of a love which she could

never return--and how could she at his age?--hardly mounted beyond his

subconscious mind. He was full, too, of resentment, at the waste and

loneliness of her life. Aware of being some comfort to her, and of the

pleasure she clearly took in their many little outings, he was amiably

desirous of doing and saying nothing to destroy that pleasure. It was

like watching a starved plant draw up water, to see her drink in his

companionship. So far as they could tell, no one knew her address except

himself; she was unknown in Paris, and he but little known, so that

discretion seemed unnecessary in those walks, talks, visits to concerts,

picture-galleries, theatres, little dinners, expeditions to Versailles,

St. Cloud, even Fontainebleau. And time fled--one of those full months

without past to it or future. What in his youth would certainly have

been headlong passion, was now perhaps as deep a feeling, but

far gentler, tempered to protective companionship by admiration,

hopelessness, and a sense of chivalry--arrested in his veins at least so

long as she was there, smiling and happy in their friendship, and always

to him more beautiful and spiritually responsive: for her philosophy

of life seemed to march in admirable step with his own, conditioned

by emotion more than by reason, ironically mistrustful, susceptible

to beauty, almost passionately humane and tolerant, yet subject to

instinctive rigidities of which as a mere man he was less capable. And

during all this companionable month he never quite lost that feeling

with which he had set out on the first day as if to visit an adored work

of art, a well-nigh impersonal desire. The future--inexorable pendant

to the present he took care not to face, for fear of breaking up his

untroubled manner; but he made plans to renew this time in places still

more delightful, where the sun was hot and there were strange things

to see and paint. The end came swiftly on the 20th of January with a

telegram: