The Forsyte Saga - Volume 2 - Page 154/238

"I am twenty," said Jolly.

"Only just; anyway, I'm as good a man as you."

Jolly's face crimsoned, then clouded. Some struggle was evidently taking

place in him; and Val and Holly stared at him, so clearly was that

struggle marked; they could even hear him breathing. Then his face

cleared up and became oddly resolute.

"We'll see that," he said. "I dare you to do what I'm going to do."

"Dare me?"

Jolly smiled. "Yes," he said, "dare you; and I know very well you

won't."

A stab of misgiving shot through Val; this was riding very blind.

"I haven't forgotten that you're a fire-eater," said Jolly slowly, "and

I think that's about all you are; or that you called me a pro-Boer."

Val heard a gasp above the sound of his own hard breathing, and saw

Holly's face poked a little forward, very pale, with big eyes.

"Yes," went on Jolly with a sort of smile, "we shall soon see. I'm going

to join the Imperial Yeomanry, and I dare you to do the same, Mr. Val

Dartie."

Val's head jerked on its stem. It was like a blow between the eyes, so

utterly unthought of, so extreme and ugly in the midst of his dreaming;

and he looked at Holly with eyes grown suddenly, touchingly haggard.

"Sit down!" said Jolly. "Take your time! Think it over well." And he

himself sat down on the arm of his grandfather's chair.

Val did not sit down; he stood with hands thrust deep into his breeches'

pockets-hands clenched and quivering. The full awfulness of this

decision one way or the other knocked at his mind with double knocks as

of an angry postman. If he did not take that 'dare' he was disgraced

in Holly's eyes, and in the eyes of that young enemy, her brute of a

brother. Yet if he took it, ah! then all would vanish--her face, her

eyes, her hair, her kisses just begun!

"Take your time," said Jolly again; "I don't want to be unfair."

And they both looked at Holly. She had recoiled against the bookshelves

reaching to the ceiling; her dark head leaned against Gibbon's Roman

Empire, her eyes in a sort of soft grey agony were fixed on Val. And he,

who had not much gift of insight, had suddenly a gleam of vision. She

would be proud of her brother--that enemy! She would be ashamed of him!

His hands came out of his pockets as if lifted by a spring.

"All right!" he said. "Done!"

Holly's face--oh! it was queer! He saw her flush, start forward. He

had done the right thing--her face was shining with wistful admiration.

Jolly stood up and made a little bow as who should say: 'You've passed.'