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Soames had travelled little. Aged nineteen he had made the 'petty tour'

with his father, mother, and Winifred--Brussels, the Rhine, Switzerland,

and home by way of Paris. Aged twenty-seven, just when he began to take

interest in pictures, he had spent five hot weeks in Italy, looking into

the Renaissance--not so much in it as he had been led to expect--and a

fortnight in Paris on his way back, looking into himself, as became a

Forsyte surrounded by people so strongly self-centred and 'foreign'

as the French. His knowledge of their language being derived from his

public school, he did not understand them when they spoke. Silence he

had found better for all parties; one did not make a fool of oneself.

He had disliked the look of the men's clothes, the closed-in cabs, the

theatres which looked like bee-hives, the Galleries which smelled of

beeswax. He was too cautious and too shy to explore that side of Paris

supposed by Forsytes to constitute its attraction under the rose; and as

for a collector's bargain--not one to be had! As Nicholas might have put

it--they were a grasping lot. He had come back uneasy, saying Paris was

overrated.

When, therefore, in June of 1900 he went to Paris, it was but his third

attempt on the centre of civilisation. This time, however, the mountain

was going to Mahomet; for he felt by now more deeply civilised than

Paris, and perhaps he really was. Moreover, he had a definite objective.

This was no mere genuflexion to a shrine of taste and immorality, but

the prosecution of his own legitimate affairs. He went, indeed,

because things were getting past a joke. The watch went on and on,

and--nothing--nothing! Jolyon had never returned to Paris, and no one

else was 'suspect!' Busy with new and very confidential matters, Soames

was realising more than ever how essential reputation is to a solicitor.

But at night and in his leisure moments he was ravaged by the thought

that time was always flying and money flowing in, and his own future as

much 'in irons' as ever. Since Mafeking night he had become aware that

a 'young fool of a doctor' was hanging round Annette. Twice he had come

across him--a cheerful young fool, not more than thirty.

Nothing annoyed Soames so much as cheerfulness--an indecent, extravagant

sort of quality, which had no relation to facts. The mixture of his

desires and hopes was, in a word, becoming torture; and lately the

thought had come to him that perhaps Irene knew she was being shadowed:

It was this which finally decided him to go and see for himself; to go

and once more try to break down her repugnance, her refusal to make

her own and his path comparatively smooth once more. If he failed

again--well, he would see what she did with herself, anyway!