The Forsyte Saga - Volume 2 - Page 189/238

He had got that off his mind; she would not let Annette commit herself

with that cheerful young ass until...! But what chance of his ever

being able to say: 'I'm free.' What chance? The future had lost all

semblance of reality. He felt like a fly, entangled in cobweb filaments,

watching the desirable freedom of the air with pitiful eyes.

He was short of exercise, and wandered on to Kensington Gardens, and

down Queen's Gate towards Chelsea. Perhaps she had gone back to her

flat. That at all events he could find out. For since that last and most

ignominious repulse his wounded self-respect had taken refuge again in

the feeling that she must have a lover. He arrived before the little

Mansions at the dinner-hour. No need to enquire! A grey-haired lady was

watering the flower-boxes in her window. It was evidently let. And he

walked slowly past again, along the river--an evening of clear, quiet

beauty, all harmony and comfort, except within his heart.