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He was on a stage with immensely high rich curtains--high as the very

stars--stretching in a semi-circle from footlights to footlights. He

himself was very small, a little black restless figure roaming up and

down; and the odd thing was that he was not altogether himself, but

Soames as well, so that he was not only experiencing but watching. This

figure of himself and Soames was trying to find a way out through the

curtains, which, heavy and dark, kept him in. Several times he had

crossed in front of them before he saw with delight a sudden narrow

rift--a tall chink of beauty the colour of iris flowers, like a glimpse

of Paradise, remote, ineffable. Stepping quickly forward to pass into

it, he found the curtains closing before him. Bitterly disappointed

he--or was it Soames?--moved on, and there was the chink again through

the parted curtains, which again closed too soon. This went on and on

and he never got through till he woke with the word "Irene" on his lips.

The dream disturbed him badly, especially that identification of himself

with Soames.

Next morning, finding it impossible to work, he spent hours riding

Jolly's horse in search of fatigue. And on the second day he made up his

mind to move to London and see if he could not get permission to follow

his daughters to South Africa. He had just begun to pack the following

morning when he received this letter:

"GREEN HOTEL,

"June 13.

"RICHMOND.

"MY DEAR JOLYON,

"You will be surprised to see how near I am to you. Paris became

impossible--and I have come here to be within reach of your advice. I

would so love to see you again. Since you left Paris I don't think I

have met anyone I could really talk to. Is all well with you and with

your boy? No one knows, I think, that I am here at present.

"Always your friend,

"IRENE."

Irene within three miles of him!--and again in flight! He stood with a

very queer smile on his lips. This was more than he had bargained for!

About noon he set out on foot across Richmond Park, and as he went

along, he thought: 'Richmond Park! By Jove, it suits us Forsytes!' Not

that Forsytes lived there--nobody lived there save royalty, rangers, and

the deer--but in Richmond Park Nature was allowed to go so far and no

further, putting up a brave show of being natural, seeming to say: 'Look

at my instincts--they are almost passions, very nearly out of hand, but

not quite, of course; the very hub of possession is to possess oneself.'

Yes! Richmond Park possessed itself, even on that bright day of June,

with arrowy cuckoos shifting the tree-points of their calls, and the

wood doves announcing high summer.