The Forsyte Saga - Volume 2 - Page 21/238

Luncheon was a successful meal, the mushrooms which he himself had

picked in the mushroom house, his chosen strawberries, and another

bottle of the Steinberg cabinet filled him with a certain aromatic

spirituality, and a conviction that he would have a touch of eczema

to-morrow.

After lunch they sat under the oak tree drinking Turkish coffee. It was

no matter of grief to him when Mademoiselle Beauce withdrew to write

her Sunday letter to her sister, whose future had been endangered in

the past by swallowing a pin--an event held up daily in warning to the

children to eat slowly and digest what they had eaten. At the foot of

the bank, on a carriage rug, Holly and the dog Balthasar teased and

loved each other, and in the shade old Jolyon with his legs crossed and

his cigar luxuriously savoured, gazed at Irene sitting in the swing. A

light, vaguely swaying, grey figure with a fleck of sunlight here and

there upon it, lips just opened, eyes dark and soft under lids a little

drooped. She looked content; surely it did her good to come and see him!

The selfishness of age had not set its proper grip on him, for he could

still feel pleasure in the pleasure of others, realising that what he

wanted, though much, was not quite all that mattered.

"It's quiet here," he said; "you mustn't come down if you find it dull.

But it's a pleasure to see you. My little sweet is the only face which

gives me any pleasure, except yours."

From her smile he knew that she was not beyond liking to be appreciated,

and this reassured him. "That's not humbug," he said. "I never told a

woman I admired her when I didn't. In fact I don't know when I've told

a woman I admired her, except my wife in the old days; and wives are

funny." He was silent, but resumed abruptly:

"She used to expect me to say it more often than I felt it, and there

we were." Her face looked mysteriously troubled, and, afraid that he had

said something painful, he hurried on: "When my little sweet marries, I

hope she'll find someone who knows what women feel. I shan't be here to

see it, but there's too much topsy-turvydom in marriage; I don't want

her to pitch up against that." And, aware that he had made bad worse, he

added: "That dog will scratch."

A silence followed. Of what was she thinking, this pretty creature whose

life was spoiled; who had done with love, and yet was made for love?

Some day when he was gone, perhaps, she would find another mate--not so

disorderly as that young fellow who had got himself run over. Ah! but

her husband?