The Forsyte Saga - Volume 3 - Page 184/204

As Soames walked away from the house at Robin Hill the sun broke through

the grey of that chill afternoon, in smoky radiance. So absorbed in

landscape painting that he seldom looked seriously for effects of Nature

out of doors--he was struck by that moody effulgence--it mourned with

a triumph suited to his own feeling. Victory in defeat. His embassy

had come to naught. But he was rid of those people, had regained his

daughter at the expense of--her happiness. What would Fleur say to him?

Would she believe he had done his best? And under that sunlight faring

on the elms, hazels, hollies of the lane and those unexploited fields,

Soames felt dread. She would be terribly upset! He must appeal to her

pride. That boy had given her up, declared part and lot with the woman

who so long ago had given her father up! Soames clenched his hands.

Given him up, and why? What had been wrong with him? And once more

he felt the malaise of one who contemplates himself as seen by

another--like a dog who chances on his refection in a mirror and is

intrigued and anxious at the unseizable thing.

Not in a hurry to get home, he dined in town at the Connoisseurs. While

eating a pear it suddenly occurred to him that, if he had not gone down

to Robin Hill, the boy might not have so decided. He remembered the

expression on his face while his mother was refusing the hand he had

held out. A strange, an awkward thought! Had Fleur cooked her own goose

by trying to make too sure?

He reached home at half-past nine. While the car was passing in at one

drive gate he heard the grinding sputter of a motor-cycle passing out

by the other. Young Mont, no doubt, so Fleur had not been lonely. But he

went in with a sinking heart. In the cream-panelled drawing-room she was

sitting with her elbows on her knees, and her chin on her clasped hands,

in front of a white camellia plant which filled the fireplace. That

glance at her before she saw him renewed his dread. What was she seeing

among those white camellias?

"Well, Father!"

Soames shook his head. His tongue failed him. This was murderous work!

He saw her eyes dilate, her lips quivering.

"What? What? Quick, Father!"

"My dear," said Soames, "I--I did my best, but--" And again he shook his

head.

Fleur ran to him, and put a hand on each of his shoulders.

"She?"

"No," muttered Soames; "he. I was to tell you that it was no use; he

must do what his father wished before he died." He caught her by the

waist. "Come, child, don't let them hurt you. They're not worth your

little finger."