The Forsyte Saga - Volume 3 - Page 203/204

Soames turned from the vault and faced toward the breeze. The air up

here would be delicious if only he could rid his nerves of the feeling

that mortality was in it. He gazed restlessly at the crosses and the

urns, the angels, the "immortelles," the flowers, gaudy or withering;

and suddenly he noticed a spot which seemed so different from anything

else up there that he was obliged to walk the few necessary yards and

look at it. A sober corner, with a massive queer-shaped cross of grey

rough-hewn granite, guarded by four dark yew-trees. The spot was free

from the pressure of the other graves, having a little box-hedged garden

on the far side, and in front a goldening birch-tree. This oasis in the

desert of conventional graves appealed to the aesthetic sense of Soames,

and he sat down there in the sunshine. Through those trembling gold

birch leaves he gazed out at London, and yielded to the waves of

memory. He thought of Irene in Montpellier Square, when her hair was

rusty-golden and her white shoulders his--Irene, the prize of his

love-passion, resistant to his ownership. He saw Bosinney's body lying

in that white mortuary, and Irene sitting on the sofa looking at space

with the eyes of a dying bird. Again he thought of her by the little

green Niobe in the Bois de Boulogne, once more rejecting him. His fancy

took him on beside his drifting river on the November day when Fleur

was to be born, took him to the dead leaves floating on the green-tinged

water and the snake-headed weed for ever swaying and nosing, sinuous,

blind, tethered. And on again to the window opened to the cold starry

night above Hyde Park, with his father lying dead. His fancy darted

to that picture of "the future town," to that boy's and Fleur's first

meeting; to the bluish trail of Prosper Profond's cigar, and Fleur in

the window pointing down to where the fellow prowled. To the sight of

Irene and that dead fellow sitting side by side in the stand at Lord's.

To her and that boy at Robin Hill. To the sofa, where Fleur lay crushed

up in the corner; to her lips pressed into his cheek, and her farewell

"Daddy." And suddenly he saw again Irene's grey-gloved hand waving its

last gesture of release.

He sat there a long time dreaming his career, faithful to the scut of

his possessive instinct, warming himself even with its failures.

"To Let"--the Forsyte age and way of life, when a man owned his soul,

his investments, and his woman, without check or question. And now the

State had, or would have, his investments, his woman had herself, and

God knew who had his soul. "To Let"--that sane and simple creed!