The Awakening and Selected Short Stories - Page 152/161

She sat herself upon a revolving stool before a counter that was

comparatively deserted, trying to gather strength and courage to charge

through an eager multitude that was besieging breastworks of shirting

and figured lawn. An all-gone limp feeling had come over her and she

rested her hand aimlessly upon the counter. She wore no gloves. By

degrees she grew aware that her hand had encountered something very

soothing, very pleasant to touch. She looked down to see that her hand

lay upon a pile of silk stockings. A placard near by announced that they

had been reduced in price from two dollars and fifty cents to one dollar

and ninety-eight cents; and a young girl who stood behind the counter

asked her if she wished to examine their line of silk hosiery. She

smiled, just as if she had been asked to inspect a tiara of diamonds

with the ultimate view of purchasing it. But she went on feeling the

soft, sheeny luxurious things--with both hands now, holding them up

to see them glisten, and to feel them glide serpent-like through her

fingers.

Two hectic blotches came suddenly into her pale cheeks. She looked up at

the girl.

"Do you think there are any eights-and-a-half among these?"

There were any number of eights-and-a-half. In fact, there were more of

that size than any other. Here was a light-blue pair; there were some

lavender, some all black and various shades of tan and gray. Mrs.

Sommers selected a black pair and looked at them very long and closely.

She pretended to be examining their texture, which the clerk assured her

was excellent.

"A dollar and ninety-eight cents," she mused aloud. "Well, I'll take

this pair." She handed the girl a five-dollar bill and waited for her

change and for her parcel. What a very small parcel it was! It seemed

lost in the depths of her shabby old shopping-bag.

Mrs. Sommers after that did not move in the direction of the bargain

counter. She took the elevator, which carried her to an upper floor into

the region of the ladies' waiting-rooms. Here, in a retired corner, she

exchanged her cotton stockings for the new silk ones which she had just

bought. She was not going through any acute mental process or reasoning

with herself, nor was she striving to explain to her satisfaction the

motive of her action. She was not thinking at all. She seemed for the

time to be taking a rest from that laborious and fatiguing function and

to have abandoned herself to some mechanical impulse that directed her

actions and freed her of responsibility.

How good was the touch of the raw silk to her flesh! She felt like lying

back in the cushioned chair and reveling for a while in the luxury of

it. She did for a little while. Then she replaced her shoes, rolled the

cotton stockings together and thrust them into her bag. After doing this

she crossed straight over to the shoe department and took her seat to be

fitted.