Don Quixote - Part I - Page 278/400

Camilla laughed at her maid's alphabet, and perceived her to be more

experienced in love affairs than she said, which she admitted, confessing

to Camilla that she had love passages with a young man of good birth of

the same city. Camilla was uneasy at this, dreading lest it might prove

the means of endangering her honour, and asked whether her intrigue had

gone beyond words, and she with little shame and much effrontery said it

had; for certain it is that ladies' imprudences make servants shameless,

who, when they see their mistresses make a false step, think nothing of

going astray themselves, or of its being known. All that Camilla could do

was to entreat Leonela to say nothing about her doings to him whom she

called her lover, and to conduct her own affairs secretly lest they

should come to the knowledge of Anselmo or of Lothario. Leonela said she

would, but kept her word in such a way that she confirmed Camilla's

apprehension of losing her reputation through her means; for this

abandoned and bold Leonela, as soon as she perceived that her mistress's

demeanour was not what it was wont to be, had the audacity to introduce

her lover into the house, confident that even if her mistress saw him she

would not dare to expose him; for the sins of mistresses entail this

mischief among others; they make themselves the slaves of their own

servants, and are obliged to hide their laxities and depravities; as was

the case with Camilla, who though she perceived, not once but many times,

that Leonela was with her lover in some room of the house, not only did

not dare to chide her, but afforded her opportunities for concealing him

and removed all difficulties, lest he should be seen by her husband. She

was unable, however, to prevent him from being seen on one occasion, as

he sallied forth at daybreak, by Lothario, who, not knowing who he was,

at first took him for a spectre; but, as soon as he saw him hasten away,

muffling his face with his cloak and concealing himself carefully and

cautiously, he rejected this foolish idea, and adopted another, which

would have been the ruin of all had not Camilla found a remedy. It did

not occur to Lothario that this man he had seen issuing at such an

untimely hour from Anselmo's house could have entered it on Leonela's

account, nor did he even remember there was such a person as Leonela; all

he thought was that as Camilla had been light and yielding with him, so

she had been with another; for this further penalty the erring woman's

sin brings with it, that her honour is distrusted even by him to whose

overtures and persuasions she has yielded; and he believes her to have

surrendered more easily to others, and gives implicit credence to every

suspicion that comes into his mind. All Lothario's good sense seems to

have failed him at this juncture; all his prudent maxims escaped his

memory; for without once reflecting rationally, and without more ado, in

his impatience and in the blindness of the jealous rage that gnawed his

heart, and dying to revenge himself upon Camilla, who had done him no

wrong, before Anselmo had risen he hastened to him and said to him,

"Know, Anselmo, that for several days past I have been struggling with

myself, striving to withhold from thee what it is no longer possible or

right that I should conceal from thee. Know that Camilla's fortress has

surrendered and is ready to submit to my will; and if I have been slow to

reveal this fact to thee, it was in order to see if it were some light

caprice of hers, or if she sought to try me and ascertain if the love I

began to make to her with thy permission was made with a serious

intention. I thought, too, that she, if she were what she ought to be,

and what we both believed her, would have ere this given thee information

of my addresses; but seeing that she delays, I believe the truth of the

promise she has given me that the next time thou art absent from the

house she will grant me an interview in the closet where thy jewels are

kept (and it was true that Camilla used to meet him there); but I do not

wish thee to rush precipitately to take vengeance, for the sin is as yet

only committed in intention, and Camilla's may change perhaps between

this and the appointed time, and repentance spring up in its place. As

hitherto thou hast always followed my advice wholly or in part, follow

and observe this that I will give thee now, so that, without mistake, and

with mature deliberation, thou mayest satisfy thyself as to what may seem

the best course; pretend to absent thyself for two or three days as thou

hast been wont to do on other occasions, and contrive to hide thyself in

the closet; for the tapestries and other things there afford great

facilities for thy concealment, and then thou wilt see with thine own

eyes and I with mine what Camilla's purpose may be. And if it be a guilty

one, which may be feared rather than expected, with silence, prudence,

and discretion thou canst thyself become the instrument of punishment for

the wrong done thee."