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"What, my friend?" replied Camilla, "we shall leave him for Anselmo to

bury him; for in reason it will be to him a light labour to hide his own

infamy under ground. Summon him, make haste, for all the time I delay in

taking vengeance for my wrong seems to me an offence against the loyalty

I owe my husband."

Anselmo was listening to all this, and every word that Camilla uttered

made him change his mind; but when he heard that it was resolved to kill

Lothario his first impulse was to come out and show himself to avert such

a disaster; but in his anxiety to see the issue of a resolution so bold

and virtuous he restrained himself, intending to come forth in time to

prevent the deed. At this moment Camilla, throwing herself upon a bed

that was close by, swooned away, and Leonela began to weep bitterly,

exclaiming, "Woe is me! that I should be fated to have dying here in my

arms the flower of virtue upon earth, the crown of true wives, the

pattern of chastity!" with more to the same effect, so that anyone who

heard her would have taken her for the most tender-hearted and faithful

handmaid in the world, and her mistress for another persecuted Penelope.

Camilla was not long in recovering from her fainting fit and on coming to

herself she said, "Why do you not go, Leonela, to call hither that

friend, the falsest to his friend the sun ever shone upon or night

concealed? Away, run, haste, speed! lest the fire of my wrath burn itself

out with delay, and the righteous vengeance that I hope for melt away in

menaces and maledictions."

"I am just going to call him, senora," said Leonela; "but you must first

give me that dagger, lest while I am gone you should by means of it give

cause to all who love you to weep all their lives."

"Go in peace, dear Leonela, I will not do so," said Camilla, "for rash

and foolish as I may be, to your mind, in defending my honour, I am not

going to be so much so as that Lucretia who they say killed herself

without having done anything wrong, and without having first killed him

on whom the guilt of her misfortune lay. I shall die, if I am to die; but

it must be after full vengeance upon him who has brought me here to weep

over audacity that no fault of mine gave birth to."

Leonela required much pressing before she would go to summon Lothario,

but at last she went, and while awaiting her return Camilla continued, as

if speaking to herself, "Good God! would it not have been more prudent to

have repulsed Lothario, as I have done many a time before, than to allow

him, as I am now doing, to think me unchaste and vile, even for the short

time I must wait until I undeceive him? No doubt it would have been

better; but I should not be avenged, nor the honour of my husband

vindicated, should he find so clear and easy an escape from the strait

into which his depravity has led him. Let the traitor pay with his life

for the temerity of his wanton wishes, and let the world know (if haply

it shall ever come to know) that Camilla not only preserved her

allegiance to her husband, but avenged him of the man who dared to wrong

him. Still, I think it might be better to disclose this to Anselmo. But

then I have called his attention to it in the letter I wrote to him in

the country, and, if he did nothing to prevent the mischief I there

pointed out to him, I suppose it was that from pure goodness of heart and

trustfulness he would not and could not believe that any thought against

his honour could harbour in the breast of so stanch a friend; nor indeed

did I myself believe it for many days, nor should I have ever believed it

if his insolence had not gone so far as to make it manifest by open

presents, lavish promises, and ceaseless tears. But why do I argue thus?

Does a bold determination stand in need of arguments? Surely not. Then

traitors avaunt! Vengeance to my aid! Let the false one come, approach,

advance, die, yield up his life, and then befall what may. Pure I came to

him whom Heaven bestowed upon me, pure I shall leave him; and at the

worst bathed in my own chaste blood and in the foul blood of the falsest

friend that friendship ever saw in the world;" and as she uttered these

words she paced the room holding the unsheathed dagger, with such

irregular and disordered steps, and such gestures that one would have

supposed her to have lost her senses, and taken her for some violent

desperado instead of a delicate woman.