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Naumann gave a shrug and said, "It is good they go away soon, my dear.

They are spoiling your fine temper."

All Will's hope and contrivance were now concentrated on seeing

Dorothea when she was alone. He only wanted her to take more emphatic

notice of him; he only wanted to be something more special in her

remembrance than he could yet believe himself likely to be. He was

rather impatient under that open ardent good-will, which he saw was her

usual state of feeling. The remote worship of a woman throned out of

their reach plays a great part in men's lives, but in most cases the

worshipper longs for some queenly recognition, some approving sign by

which his soul's sovereign may cheer him without descending from her

high place. That was precisely what Will wanted. But there were

plenty of contradictions in his imaginative demands. It was beautiful

to see how Dorothea's eyes turned with wifely anxiety and beseeching to

Mr. Casaubon: she would have lost some of her halo if she had been

without that duteous preoccupation; and yet at the next moment the

husband's sandy absorption of such nectar was too intolerable; and

Will's longing to say damaging things about him was perhaps not the

less tormenting because he felt the strongest reasons for restraining

it.

Will had not been invited to dine the next day. Hence he persuaded

himself that he was bound to call, and that the only eligible time was

the middle of the day, when Mr. Casaubon would not be at home.

Dorothea, who had not been made aware that her former reception of Will

had displeased her husband, had no hesitation about seeing him,

especially as he might be come to pay a farewell visit. When he

entered she was looking at some cameos which she had been buying for

Celia. She greeted Will as if his visit were quite a matter of course,

and said at once, having a cameo bracelet in her hand--

"I am so glad you are come. Perhaps you understand all about cameos,

and can tell me if these are really good. I wished to have you with us

in choosing them, but Mr. Casaubon objected: he thought there was not

time. He will finish his work to-morrow, and we shall go away in three

days. I have been uneasy about these cameos. Pray sit down and look

at them."

"I am not particularly knowing, but there can be no great mistake about

these little Homeric bits: they are exquisitely neat. And the color is

fine: it will just suit you."

"Oh, they are for my sister, who has quite a different complexion. You

saw her with me at Lowick: she is light-haired and very pretty--at

least I think so. We were never so long away from each other in our

lives before. She is a great pet and never was naughty in her life. I

found out before I came away that she wanted me to buy her some cameos,

and I should be sorry for them not to be good--after their kind."

Dorothea added the last words with a smile.