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"I've got something to tell you, my dear," said Caleb in his hesitating

way. "No very good news; but then it might be worse."

"About money, father? I think I know what it is."

"Ay? how can that be? You see, I've been a bit of a fool again, and

put my name to a bill, and now it comes to paying; and your mother has

got to part with her savings, that's the worst of it, and even they

won't quite make things even. We wanted a hundred and ten pounds: your

mother has ninety-two, and I have none to spare in the bank; and she

thinks that you have some savings."

"Oh yes; I have more than four-and-twenty pounds. I thought you would

come, father, so I put it in my bag. See! beautiful white notes and

gold."

Mary took out the folded money from her reticule and put it into her

father's hand.

"Well, but how--we only want eighteen--here, put the rest back,

child,--but how did you know about it?" said Caleb, who, in his

unconquerable indifference to money, was beginning to be chiefly

concerned about the relation the affair might have to Mary's affections.

"Fred told me this morning."

"Ah! Did he come on purpose?"

"Yes, I think so. He was a good deal distressed."

"I'm afraid Fred is not to be trusted, Mary," said the father, with

hesitating tenderness. "He means better than he acts, perhaps. But I

should think it a pity for any body's happiness to be wrapped up in

him, and so would your mother."

"And so should I, father," said Mary, not looking up, but putting the

back of her father's hand against her cheek.

"I don't want to pry, my dear. But I was afraid there might be

something between you and Fred, and I wanted to caution you. You see,

Mary"--here Caleb's voice became more tender; he had been pushing his

hat about on the table and looking at it, but finally he turned his

eyes on his daughter--"a woman, let her be as good as she may, has got

to put up with the life her husband makes for her. Your mother has had

to put up with a good deal because of me."

Mary turned the back of her father's hand to her lips and smiled at him.

"Well, well, nobody's perfect, but"--here Mr. Garth shook his head to

help out the inadequacy of words--"what I am thinking of is--what it

must be for a wife when she's never sure of her husband, when he hasn't

got a principle in him to make him more afraid of doing the wrong thing

by others than of getting his own toes pinched. That's the long and

the short of it, Mary. Young folks may get fond of each other before

they know what life is, and they may think it all holiday if they can

only get together; but it soon turns into working day, my dear.

However, you have more sense than most, and you haven't been kept in

cotton-wool: there may be no occasion for me to say this, but a father

trembles for his daughter, and you are all by yourself here."