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Let the high Muse chant loves Olympian:

We are but mortals, and must sing of man.

An eminent philosopher among my friends, who can dignify even your ugly

furniture by lifting it into the serene light of science, has shown me

this pregnant little fact. Your pier-glass or extensive surface of

polished steel made to be rubbed by a housemaid, will be minutely and

multitudinously scratched in all directions; but place now against it a

lighted candle as a centre of illumination, and lo! the scratches will

seem to arrange themselves in a fine series of concentric circles round

that little sun. It is demonstrable that the scratches are going

everywhere impartially and it is only your candle which produces the

flattering illusion of a concentric arrangement, its light falling with

an exclusive optical selection. These things are a parable. The

scratches are events, and the candle is the egoism of any person now

absent--of Miss Vincy, for example. Rosamond had a Providence of her

own who had kindly made her more charming than other girls, and who

seemed to have arranged Fred's illness and Mr. Wrench's mistake in

order to bring her and Lydgate within effective proximity. It would

have been to contravene these arrangements if Rosamond had consented to

go away to Stone Court or elsewhere, as her parents wished her to do,

especially since Mr. Lydgate thought the precaution needless.

Therefore, while Miss Morgan and the children were sent away to a

farmhouse the morning after Fred's illness had declared itself,

Rosamond refused to leave papa and mamma.

Poor mamma indeed was an object to touch any creature born of woman;

and Mr. Vincy, who doted on his wife, was more alarmed on her account

than on Fred's. But for his insistence she would have taken no rest:

her brightness was all bedimmed; unconscious of her costume which had

always been so fresh and gay, she was like a sick bird with languid eye

and plumage ruffled, her senses dulled to the sights and sounds that

used most to interest her. Fred's delirium, in which he seemed to be

wandering out of her reach, tore her heart. After her first outburst

against Mr. Wrench she went about very quietly: her one low cry was to

Lydgate. She would follow him out of the room and put her hand on his

arm moaning out, "Save my boy." Once she pleaded, "He has always been

good to me, Mr. Lydgate: he never had a hard word for his mother,"--as

if poor Fred's suffering were an accusation against him. All the

deepest fibres of the mother's memory were stirred, and the young man

whose voice took a gentler tone when he spoke to her, was one with the

babe whom she had loved, with a love new to her, before he was born.