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This distinction conferred on the Rector of Tipton and Freshitt was the

reason why Mrs. Cadwallader made one of the group that watched old

Featherstone's funeral from an upper window of the manor. She was not

fond of visiting that house, but she liked, as she said, to see

collections of strange animals such as there would be at this funeral;

and she had persuaded Sir James and the young Lady Chettam to drive the

Rector and herself to Lowick in order that the visit might be

altogether pleasant.

"I will go anywhere with you, Mrs. Cadwallader," Celia had said; "but I

don't like funerals."

"Oh, my dear, when you have a clergyman in your family you must

accommodate your tastes: I did that very early. When I married

Humphrey I made up my mind to like sermons, and I set out by liking the

end very much. That soon spread to the middle and the beginning,

because I couldn't have the end without them."

"No, to be sure not," said the Dowager Lady Chettam, with stately

emphasis.

The upper window from which the funeral could be well seen was in the

room occupied by Mr. Casaubon when he had been forbidden to work; but

he had resumed nearly his habitual style of life now in spite of

warnings and prescriptions, and after politely welcoming Mrs.

Cadwallader had slipped again into the library to chew a cud of erudite

mistake about Cush and Mizraim.

But for her visitors Dorothea too might have been shut up in the

library, and would not have witnessed this scene of old Featherstone's

funeral, which, aloof as it seemed to be from the tenor of her life,

always afterwards came back to her at the touch of certain sensitive

points in memory, just as the vision of St. Peter's at Rome was inwoven

with moods of despondency. Scenes which make vital changes in our

neighbors' lot are but the background of our own, yet, like a

particular aspect of the fields and trees, they become associated for

us with the epochs of our own history, and make a part of that unity

which lies in the selection of our keenest consciousness.

The dream-like association of something alien and ill-understood with

the deepest secrets of her experience seemed to mirror that sense of

loneliness which was due to the very ardor of Dorothea's nature. The

country gentry of old time lived in a rarefied social air: dotted apart

on their stations up the mountain they looked down with imperfect

discrimination on the belts of thicker life below. And Dorothea was

not at ease in the perspective and chilliness of that height.