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She did not answer at once, but after looking down ruminatingly she

said, with some earnestness, "Mr. Casaubon must have overcome his

dislike of you so far as his actions were concerned: and that is

admirable."

"Yes; he has shown a sense of justice in family matters. It was an

abominable thing that my grandmother should have been disinherited

because she made what they called a mesalliance, though there was

nothing to be said against her husband except that he was a Polish

refugee who gave lessons for his bread."

"I wish I knew all about her!" said Dorothea. "I wonder how she bore

the change from wealth to poverty: I wonder whether she was happy with

her husband! Do you know much about them?"

"No; only that my grandfather was a patriot--a bright fellow--could

speak many languages--musical--got his bread by teaching all sorts of

things. They both died rather early. And I never knew much of my

father, beyond what my mother told me; but he inherited the musical

talents. I remember his slow walk and his long thin hands; and one day

remains with me when he was lying ill, and I was very hungry, and had

only a little bit of bread."

"Ah, what a different life from mine!" said Dorothea, with keen

interest, clasping her hands on her lap. "I have always had too much

of everything. But tell me how it was--Mr. Casaubon could not have

known about you then."

"No; but my father had made himself known to Mr. Casaubon, and that was

my last hungry day. My father died soon after, and my mother and I

were well taken care of. Mr. Casaubon always expressly recognized it

as his duty to take care of us because of the harsh injustice which had

been shown to his mother's sister. But now I am telling you what is

not new to you."

In his inmost soul Will was conscious of wishing to tell Dorothea what

was rather new even in his own construction of things--namely, that

Mr. Casaubon had never done more than pay a debt towards him. Will was

much too good a fellow to be easy under the sense of being ungrateful.

And when gratitude has become a matter of reasoning there are many ways

of escaping from its bonds.

"No," answered Dorothea; "Mr. Casaubon has always avoided dwelling on

his own honorable actions." She did not feel that her husband's

conduct was depreciated; but this notion of what justice had required

in his relations with Will Ladislaw took strong hold on her mind.

After a moment's pause, she added, "He had never told me that he

supported your mother. Is she still living?"