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"Mary could not have acted otherwise, even if she had known what would

be the effect on Fred," said Mrs. Garth, pausing from her work, and

looking at Mr. Farebrother.

"And she was quite ignorant of it. It seems to me, a loss which falls

on another because we have done right is not to lie upon our

conscience."

The Vicar did not answer immediately, and Caleb said, "It's the

feeling. The child feels in that way, and I feel with her. You don't

mean your horse to tread on a dog when you're backing out of the way;

but it goes through you, when it's done."

"I am sure Mrs. Garth would agree with you there," said Mr.

Farebrother, who for some reason seemed more inclined to ruminate than

to speak. "One could hardly say that the feeling you mention about

Fred is wrong--or rather, mistaken--though no man ought to make a claim

on such feeling."

"Well, well," said Caleb, "it's a secret. You will not tell Fred."

"Certainly not. But I shall carry the other good news--that you can

afford the loss he caused you."

Mr. Farebrother left the house soon after, and seeing Mary in the

orchard with Letty, went to say good-by to her. They made a pretty

picture in the western light which brought out the brightness of the

apples on the old scant-leaved boughs--Mary in her lavender gingham and

black ribbons holding a basket, while Letty in her well-worn nankin

picked up the fallen apples. If you want to know more particularly how

Mary looked, ten to one you will see a face like hers in the crowded

street to-morrow, if you are there on the watch: she will not be among

those daughters of Zion who are haughty, and walk with stretched-out

necks and wanton eyes, mincing as they go: let all those pass, and fix

your eyes on some small plump brownish person of firm but quiet

carriage, who looks about her, but does not suppose that anybody is

looking at her. If she has a broad face and square brow, well-marked

eyebrows and curly dark hair, a certain expression of amusement in her

glance which her mouth keeps the secret of, and for the rest features

entirely insignificant--take that ordinary but not disagreeable person

for a portrait of Mary Garth. If you made her smile, she would show

you perfect little teeth; if you made her angry, she would not raise

her voice, but would probably say one of the bitterest things you have

ever tasted the flavor of; if you did her a kindness, she would never

forget it. Mary admired the keen-faced handsome little Vicar in his

well-brushed threadbare clothes more than any man she had had the

opportunity of knowing. She had never heard him say a foolish thing,

though she knew that he did unwise ones; and perhaps foolish sayings

were more objectionable to her than any of Mr. Farebrother's unwise

doings. At least, it was remarkable that the actual imperfections of

the Vicar's clerical character never seemed to call forth the same

scorn and dislike which she showed beforehand for the predicted

imperfections of the clerical character sustained by Fred Vincy. These

irregularities of judgment, I imagine, are found even in riper minds

than Mary Garth's: our impartiality is kept for abstract merit and

demerit, which none of us ever saw. Will any one guess towards which

of those widely different men Mary had the peculiar woman's

tenderness?--the one she was most inclined to be severe on, or the

contrary?