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Mr. Farebrother was silent for a minute or more, and then, as they

turned and paused under the shadow of a maple at the end of a grassy

walk, said, "I understand that you resist any attempt to fetter you,

but either your feeling for Fred Vincy excludes your entertaining

another attachment, or it does not: either he may count on your

remaining single until he shall have earned your hand, or he may in any

case be disappointed. Pardon me, Mary--you know I used to catechise

you under that name--but when the state of a woman's affections touches

the happiness of another life--of more lives than one--I think it would

be the nobler course for her to be perfectly direct and open."

Mary in her turn was silent, wondering not at Mr. Farebrother's manner

but at his tone, which had a grave restrained emotion in it. When the

strange idea flashed across her that his words had reference to

himself, she was incredulous, and ashamed of entertaining it. She had

never thought that any man could love her except Fred, who had espoused

her with the umbrella ring, when she wore socks and little strapped

shoes; still less that she could be of any importance to Mr.

Farebrother, the cleverest man in her narrow circle. She had only time

to feel that all this was hazy and perhaps illusory; but one thing was

clear and determined--her answer.

"Since you think it my duty, Mr. Farebrother, I will tell you that I

have too strong a feeling for Fred to give him up for any one else. I

should never be quite happy if I thought he was unhappy for the loss of

me. It has taken such deep root in me--my gratitude to him for always

loving me best, and minding so much if I hurt myself, from the time

when we were very little. I cannot imagine any new feeling coming to

make that weaker. I should like better than anything to see him worthy

of every one's respect. But please tell him I will not promise to

marry him till then: I should shame and grieve my father and mother.

He is free to choose some one else."

"Then I have fulfilled my commission thoroughly," said Mr. Farebrother,

putting out his hand to Mary, "and I shall ride back to Middlemarch

forthwith. With this prospect before him, we shall get Fred into the

right niche somehow, and I hope I shall live to join your hands. God

bless you!"

"Oh, please stay, and let me give you some tea," said Mary. Her eyes

filled with tears, for something indefinable, something like the

resolute suppression of a pain in Mr. Farebrother's manner, made her

feel suddenly miserable, as she had once felt when she saw her father's

hands trembling in a moment of trouble.