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"I know you think me very undeserving, Mrs. Garth, and with good

reason," said Fred, his spirit rising a little at the perception of

something like a disposition to lecture him. "I happen to have behaved

just the worst to the people I can't help wishing for the most from.

But while two men like Mr. Garth and Mr. Farebrother have not given me

up, I don't see why I should give myself up." Fred thought it might be

well to suggest these masculine examples to Mrs. Garth.

"Assuredly," said she, with gathering emphasis. "A young man for whom

two such elders had devoted themselves would indeed be culpable if he

threw himself away and made their sacrifices vain."

Fred wondered a little at this strong language, but only said, "I hope

it will not be so with me, Mrs. Garth, since I have some encouragement

to believe that I may win Mary. Mr. Garth has told you about that?

You were not surprised, I dare say?" Fred ended, innocently referring

only to his own love as probably evident enough.

"Not surprised that Mary has given you encouragement?" returned Mrs.

Garth, who thought it would be well for Fred to be more alive to the

fact that Mary's friends could not possibly have wished this

beforehand, whatever the Vincys might suppose. "Yes, I confess I was

surprised."

"She never did give me any--not the least in the world, when I talked

to her myself," said Fred, eager to vindicate Mary. "But when I asked

Mr. Farebrother to speak for me, she allowed him to tell me there was a

hope."

The power of admonition which had begun to stir in Mrs. Garth had not

yet discharged itself. It was a little too provoking even for _her_

self-control that this blooming youngster should flourish on the

disappointments of sadder and wiser people--making a meal of a

nightingale and never knowing it--and that all the while his family

should suppose that hers was in eager need of this sprig; and her

vexation had fermented the more actively because of its total

repression towards her husband. Exemplary wives will sometimes find

scapegoats in this way. She now said with energetic decision, "You

made a great mistake, Fred, in asking Mr. Farebrother to speak for you."

"Did I?" said Fred, reddening instantaneously. He was alarmed, but at

a loss to know what Mrs. Garth meant, and added, in an apologetic tone,

"Mr. Farebrother has always been such a friend of ours; and Mary, I

knew, would listen to him gravely; and he took it on himself quite

readily."

"Yes, young people are usually blind to everything but their own

wishes, and seldom imagine how much those wishes cost others," said

Mrs. Garth. She did not mean to go beyond this salutary general

doctrine, and threw her indignation into a needless unwinding of her

worsted, knitting her brow at it with a grand air.