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No third person listening could have thoroughly understood the

impetuosity of Will's repulse or the bitterness of his words. No one

but himself then knew how everything connected with the sentiment of

his own dignity had an immediate bearing for him on his relation to

Dorothea and to Mr. Casaubon's treatment of him. And in the rush of

impulses by which he flung back that offer of Bulstrode's there was

mingled the sense that it would have been impossible for him ever to

tell Dorothea that he had accepted it.

As for Bulstrode--when Will was gone he suffered a violent reaction,

and wept like a woman. It was the first time he had encountered an

open expression of scorn from any man higher than Raffles; and with

that scorn hurrying like venom through his system, there was no

sensibility left to consolations. But the relief of weeping had to be

checked. His wife and daughters soon came home from hearing the

address of an Oriental missionary, and were full of regret that papa

had not heard, in the first instance, the interesting things which they

tried to repeat to him.

Perhaps, through all other hidden thoughts, the one that breathed most

comfort was, that Will Ladislaw at least was not likely to publish what

had taken place that evening.