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"I called to tell you not to go any further, Mr. Trumbull; and I beg of

you not to mention what has been said on the subject. Will you oblige

me?"

"Certainly I will, Mrs. Lydgate, certainly. Confidence is sacred with

me on business or any other topic. I am then to consider the

commission withdrawn?" said Mr. Trumbull, adjusting the long ends of

his blue cravat with both hands, and looking at Rosamond deferentially.

"Yes, if you please. I find that Mr. Ned Plymdale has taken a house--the

one in St. Peter's Place next to Mr. Hackbutt's. Mr. Lydgate would be

annoyed that his orders should be fulfilled uselessly. And besides

that, there are other circumstances which render the proposal

unnecessary."

"Very good, Mrs. Lydgate, very good. I am at your commands, whenever

you require any service of me," said Mr. Trumbull, who felt pleasure in

conjecturing that some new resources had been opened. "Rely on me, I

beg. The affair shall go no further."

That evening Lydgate was a little comforted by observing that Rosamond

was more lively than she had usually been of late, and even seemed

interested in doing what would please him without being asked. He

thought, "If she will be happy and I can rub through, what does it all

signify? It is only a narrow swamp that we have to pass in a long

journey. If I can get my mind clear again, I shall do."

He was so much cheered that he began to search for an account of

experiments which he had long ago meant to look up, and had neglected

out of that creeping self-despair which comes in the train of petty

anxieties. He felt again some of the old delightful absorption in a

far-reaching inquiry, while Rosamond played the quiet music which was

as helpful to his meditation as the plash of an oar on the evening

lake. It was rather late; he had pushed away all the books, and was

looking at the fire with his hands clasped behind his head in

forgetfulness of everything except the construction of a new

controlling experiment, when Rosamond, who had left the piano and was

leaning back in her chair watching him, said--

"Mr. Ned Plymdale has taken a house already."

Lydgate, startled and jarred, looked up in silence for a moment, like a

man who has been disturbed in his sleep. Then flushing with an

unpleasant consciousness, he asked--

"How do you know?"

"I called at Mrs. Plymdale's this morning, and she told me that he had

taken the house in St. Peter's Place, next to Mr. Hackbutt's."

Lydgate was silent. He drew his hands from behind his head and pressed

them against the hair which was hanging, as it was apt to do, in a mass

on his forehead, while he rested his elbows on his knees. He was

feeling bitter disappointment, as if he had opened a door out of a

suffocating place and had found it walled up; but he also felt sure

that Rosamond was pleased with the cause of his disappointment. He

preferred not looking at her and not speaking, until he had got over

the first spasm of vexation. After all, he said in his bitterness,

what can a woman care about so much as house and furniture? a husband

without them is an absurdity. When he looked up and pushed his hair

aside, his dark eyes had a miserable blank non-expectance of sympathy

in them, but he only said, coolly--