Wives and Daughters: An Every-Day Story - Page 157/572

"Thank you. But I don't want the shawl and the ribbons, please: there

will be nobody there except the family. There never is, I think; and

now that she is so ill"--Molly was on the point of crying at the

thought of her friend lying ill and lonely, and looking for her

arrival. Moreover, she was sadly afraid lest the Squire had gone off

with the idea that she did not want to come--that she preferred that

stupid, stupid party at the Cockerells'. Mrs. Gibson, too, was sorry;

she had an uncomfortable consciousness of having given way to temper

before a stranger, and a stranger, too, whose good opinion she had

meant to cultivate; and she was also annoyed at Molly's tearful face.

"What can I do for you, to bring you back into good temper?" she

said. "First, you insist upon your knowing Lady Harriet better than

I do--I, who have known her for eighteen or nineteen years at least.

Then you jump at invitations without ever consulting me, or thinking

of how awkward it would be for me to go stumping into a drawing-room

all by myself; following my new name, too, which always makes me feel

uncomfortable, it is such a sad come-down after Kirkpatrick! And

then, when I offer you some of the prettiest things I have got, you

say it does not signify how you are dressed. What can I do to please

you, Molly? I, who delight in nothing more than peace in a family, to

see you sitting there with despair upon your face?"

Molly could stand it no longer; she went upstairs to her own

room--her own smart new room, which hardly yet seemed a familiar

place; and began to cry so heartily and for so long a time, that she

stopped at length for very weariness. She thought of Mrs. Hamley

wearying for her; of the old Hall whose very quietness might become

oppressive to an ailing person; of the trust the Squire had had in

her that she would come off directly with him. And all this oppressed

her much more than the querulousness of her stepmother's words.