Wives and Daughters: An Every-Day Story - Page 343/572

Cynthia was always the same with Molly: kind, sweet-tempered, ready

to help, professing a great deal of love for her, and probably

feeling as much as she did for any one in the world. But Molly had

reached to this superficial depth of affection and intimacy in the

first few weeks of Cynthia's residence in her father's house; and if

she had been of a nature prone to analyse the character of one whom

she loved dearly, she might have perceived that, with all Cynthia's

apparent frankness, there were certain limits beyond which her

confidence did not go; where her reserve began, and her real self was

shrouded in mystery. For instance, her relations with Mr. Preston

were often very puzzling to Molly. She was sure that there had been a

much greater intimacy between them formerly at Ashcombe, and that the

remembrance of this was often very galling and irritating to Cynthia,

who was as evidently desirous of forgetting it as he was anxious

to make her remember it. But why this intimacy had ceased, why

Cynthia disliked him so extremely now, and many other unexplained

circumstances connected with these two facts, were Cynthia's secrets;

and she effectually baffled all Molly's innocent attempts during

the first glow of her friendship for Cynthia, to learn the girlish

antecedents of her companion's life. Every now and then Molly came

to a dead wall, beyond which she could not pass--at least with the

delicate instruments which were all she chose to use. Perhaps Cynthia

might have told all there was to tell to a more forcible curiosity,

which knew how to improve every slip of the tongue and every fit of

temper to its own gratification. But Molly's was the interest of

affection, not the coarser desire of knowing everything for a little

excitement; and as soon as she saw that Cynthia did not wish to tell

her anything about that period of her life, Molly left off referring

to it. But if Cynthia had preserved a sweet tranquillity of manner

and an unvarying kindness for Molly during the winter of which there

is question, at present she was the only person to whom the beauty's

ways were unchanged. Mr. Gibson's influence had been good for her as

long as she saw that he liked her; she had tried to keep as high a

place in his good opinion as she could, and had curbed many a little

sarcasm against her mother, and many a twisting of the absolute

truth when he was by. Now there was a constant uneasiness about her

which made her more cowardly than before; and even her partisan,

Molly, could not help being aware of the distinct equivocations she

occasionally used when anything in Mr. Gibson's words or behaviour

pressed her too hard. Her repartees to her mother were less frequent

than they had been, but there was often the unusual phenomenon

of pettishness in her behaviour to her. These changes in humour

and disposition, here described all at once, were in themselves a

series of delicate alterations of relative conduct spread over many

months--many winter months of long evenings and bad weather, which

bring out discords of character, as a dash of cold water brings out

the fading colours of an old fresco.