Wives and Daughters: An Every-Day Story - Page 384/572

"Made you!" said he, laying an emphasis on the first word.

Cynthia turned scarlet. "'Made' is not the right word, I confess.

I liked you then--you were almost my only friend--and, if it had

been a question of immediate marriage, I daresay I should never have

objected. But I know you better now; and you have persecuted me so of

late, that I tell you once for all (as I have told you before, till

I am sick of the very words), that nothing shall ever make me marry

you. Nothing! I see there's no chance of escaping exposure and, I

daresay, losing my character, and I know losing all the few friends

I have."

"Never me," said Molly, touched by the wailing tone of despair that

Cynthia was falling into.

"It is hard," said Mr. Preston. "You may believe all the bad things

you like about me, Cynthia, but I don't think you can doubt my real,

passionate, disinterested love for you."

"I do doubt it," said Cynthia, breaking out with fresh energy. "Ah!

when I think of the self-denying affection I have seen--I have

known--affection that thought of others before itself--"

Mr. Preston broke in at the pause she made. She was afraid of

revealing too much to him.

"You do not call it love which has been willing to wait for years--to

be silent while silence was desired--to suffer jealousy and to bear

neglect, relying on the solemn promise of a girl of sixteen--for

solemn say flimsy, when that girl grows older. Cynthia, I have loved

you, and I do love you, and I won't give you up. If you will but keep

your word, and marry me, I'll swear I'll make you love me in return."

"Oh, I wish--I wish I'd never borrowed that unlucky money, it was the

beginning of it all. Oh, Molly, I have saved and scrimped to repay

it, and he won't take it now; I thought if I could but repay it, it

would set me free."

"You seem to imply you sold yourself for twenty pounds," he said.

They were nearly on the common now, close to the protection of the

cottages, in very hearing of their inmates; if neither of the other

two thought of this, Molly did, and resolved in her mind to call in

at one of them, and ask for the labourer's protection home; at any

rate his presence must put a stop to this miserable altercation.

"I did not sell myself; I liked you then. But oh, how I do hate you

now!" cried Cynthia, unable to contain her words.

He bowed and turned back, vanishing rapidly down the field staircase.

At any rate that was a relief. Yet the two girls hastened on, as

if he was still pursuing them. Once, when Molly said something to

Cynthia, the latter replied--