Wives and Daughters: An Every-Day Story - Page 444/572

Mrs. Gibson was slow in recovering her strength after the influenza,

and before she was well enough to accept Lady Harriet's invitation to

the Towers, Cynthia came home from London. If Molly had thought her

manner of departure was scarcely as affectionate and considerate as

it might have been,--if such a thought had crossed Molly's fancy

for an instant, she was repentant for it as soon as ever Cynthia

returned, and the girls met together face to face, with all the old

familiar affection, going upstairs to the drawing-room, with their

arms round each other's waists, and sitting there together hand in

hand. Cynthia's whole manner was more quiet than it had been, when

the weight of her unpleasant secret rested on her mind, and made her

alternately despondent or flighty.

"After all," said Cynthia, "there's a look of home about these rooms

which is very pleasant. But I wish I could see you looking stronger,

mamma! that's the only unpleasant thing. Molly, why didn't you send

for me?"

"I wanted to do," began Molly--

"But I wouldn't let her," said Mrs. Gibson. "You were much better

in London than here, for you could have done me no good; and your

letters were very agreeable to read; and now Helen is better, and

I'm nearly well, and you've come home just at the right time, for

everybody is full of the Charity Ball."

"But we are not going this year, mamma," said Cynthia decidedly.

"It's on the 25th, isn't it? and I'm sure you'll never be well enough

to take us."

"You really seem determined to make me out worse than I am, child,"

said Mrs. Gibson, rather querulously, she being one of those who,

when their malady is only trifling, exaggerate it, but when it is

really of some consequence, are unwilling to sacrifice any pleasures

by acknowledging it. It was well for her in this instance that her

husband had wisdom and authority enough to forbid her going to

this ball, on which she had set her heart; but the consequence of

his prohibition was an increase of domestic plaintiveness and low

spirits, which seemed to tell on Cynthia--the bright gay Cynthia

herself--and it was often hard work for Molly to keep up the spirits

of two other people as well as her own. Ill-health might account for

Mrs. Gibson's despondency, but why was Cynthia so silent, not to say

so sighing? Molly was puzzled to account for it; and all the more

perplexed because from time to time Cynthia kept calling upon her for

praise for some unknown and mysterious virtue that she had practised;

and Molly was young enough to believe that, after any exercise of

virtue, the spirits rose, cheered up by an approving conscience.

Such was not the case with Cynthia, however. She sometimes said

such things as these, when she had been particularly inert and

desponding:--