Wives and Daughters: An Every-Day Story - Page 483/572

"Now, Molly, look how much less trouble the dear old Squire would

give if he would obey orders. He is only adding to anxiety by

indulging himself. One pardons everything to extreme grief, however.

But you will have enough to do to occupy all your strength for days

to come; and go to bed you must now. I only wish I saw my way as

clearly through other things as I do to your nearest duty. I wish I'd

never let Roger go wandering off; he'll wish it too, poor fellow!

Did I tell you Cynthia is going off in hot haste to her uncle

Kirkpatrick's? I suspect a visit to him will stand in lieu of going

out to Russia as a governess."

"I am sure she was quite serious in wishing for that."

"Yes, yes! at the time. I've no doubt she thought she was sincere

in intending to go. But the great thing was to get out of the

unpleasantness of the present time and place; and uncle Kirkpatrick's

will do this as effectually, and more pleasantly, than a situation at

Nishni-Novgorod in an ice-palace."

He had given Molly's thoughts a turn, which was what he wanted to

do. Molly could not help remembering Mr. Henderson, and his offer,

and all the consequent hints; and wondering, and wishing--what did

she wish? or had she been falling asleep? Before she had quite

ascertained this point she was asleep in reality.

After this, long days passed over in a monotonous round of care; for

no one seemed to think of Molly's leaving the Hall during the woeful

illness that befell Mrs. Osborne Hamley. It was not that her father

allowed her to take much active part in the nursing; the Squire gave

him _carte-blanche_, and he engaged two efficient hospital nurses to

watch over the unconscious Aimée; but Molly was needed to receive the

finer directions as to her treatment and diet. It was not that she

was wanted for the care of the little boy; the Squire was too jealous

of the child's exclusive love for that, and one of the housemaids was

employed in the actual physical charge of him; but he needed some one

to listen to his incontinence of language, both when his passionate

regret for his dead son came uppermost, and also when he had

discovered some extraordinary charm in that son's child; and again

when he was oppressed with the uncertainty of Aimée's long-continued

illness. Molly was not so good or so bewitching a listener to

ordinary conversation as Cynthia; but where her heart was interested

her sympathy was deep and unfailing. In this case she only wished

that the Squire could really feel that Aimée was not the encumbrance

which he evidently considered her to be. Not that he would have

acknowledged the fact, if it had been put before him in plain words.

He fought against the dim consciousness of what was in his mind; he

spoke repeatedly of patience when no one but himself was impatient;

he would often say that when she grew better she must not be allowed

to leave the Hall until she was perfectly strong, when no one was

even contemplating the remotest chance of her leaving her child,

excepting only himself. Molly once or twice asked her father if she

might not speak to the Squire, and represent the hardship of sending

her away--the improbability that she would consent to quit her boy,

and so on; but Mr. Gibson only replied,--