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"A--a girl?" Clara stammered, her wet eyes on the doctor's face,

her panting little figure lost in the big outline of her mother's

spare-room bed. She managed a brave smile, but there was a bitter

lump in her throat.

A girl!

And she had been so brave, so sweet with Jerry, who had not

enjoyed the three or four days of waiting at her mother's house;

so strong in her agonies, as became the healthy, normal little

country girl she was! Fate owed her a son, she had done her share,

she had not flinched. And now--a girl! Fresh tears of

disappointment came to take the place of tears of pain in her

eyes. She remembered that Jerry had said, a few days before,

"It'll be a boy, of course--all the old women about seem to have

settled that--and I believe I'll cable Cousin Harold."

"Ma says it'll be a boy," Clara had submitted hopefully, longing

to hear more of "Cousin Harold," to whom Gerald alluded at long

intervals.

"Of course it will--good old girl!" Jerry had agreed. And that was

only Thursday night, and this was in the late dawn of cold, wintry

Saturday morning.

Her mother bent over her and kissed her wet forehead. Mrs.

Mumford's big kind face was radiant; she had already four small

grandsons; this was the first grand-daughter. More than that, the

nurse was not here yet; she had been supreme through the ordeal;

she had managed one more birth extremely well, and she rejoiced in

the making of a nation.

"Such a nice baby, darling!" she whispered, "with her dear little

head all covered with black hair! Neta's dressing her."

"Where's Gerald?" the young mother asked weakly.

"Right here! I'll let him in for a moment!" There was a

satisfaction in Mrs. Mumford's voice; everything was proceeding

absolutely by schedule. "And just as anxious to see you as you are

to see him!" she added happily. These occasions were always the

same, and always far more enjoyable to this practised parent than

any pageant, any opera, any social distinction could have been. To

comfortably, soothingly lead the trembling novice through the long

experience, to whisk about the house capably and briskly busy with

the familiar paraphernalia, to cry in sympathy with another's

tears, to stand white-lipped, impotent, anguished through a few

dreadful moments, and then to laugh, and rejoice, and reassure,

before the happy hours of resting, and feeding, and cuddling

began--this was the greatest satisfaction in her life.

Clara, afraid in this first moment to face his disappointment,

felt in another the most delicious reassurance and comfort she had

known in months. Jerry, taking the chair by the bedside, was so

dear about it! The long night had much impressed the new-made

father. They had had coffee at about two o'clock--Clara remembered

wondering how they could sit enjoying it, instead of dashing the

hideous cups to the floor, and rushing out of the horrible

enclosure of walls and curtains--and as he bent over her she knew

he had had something stronger since--but he was so dear!