"Fine! Pick some thing out for me to wear" I spin around and walk away in shame. I guess I haven't change that much since I can't say no to that face. "Yay!" I hear her cheer from behind me "I promise you won't regret it". Too late for that I already regret it. I throw myself on the bed and stare at my bracelet I never take it off. I can't afford to lose this like I did my necklace. Every time I look at my bracelet it takes me back to the day he gave it to me. That was the night that I gave my virginity to Gabe. "God how I miss you Gabe" I say out loud. Every chance I get I talk to him. I don't know if he hears me but I have to believe he does, it helps me stay sane or something like that. "It's been so hard trying to fall asleep with out you by my side and no it's not because of my snoring because we both know I don't snore," I fake laugh as my eyes start to swell "let's not even talk about waking up every morning". I don't even bother mentioning the nightmares there is no need for him to know about that. "I really miss you," I whisper.
Every morning for about 5 seconds after the nightmares I wait for my morning call or text but when it doesn't come I remember the nightmare I'm living. I have to say that is the worst part of my day realizing that he really isn't here no more. The door flies opens and I quickly recover my composure last thing I need right now is for Sammy to want to have a heart to heart. I pat my eyes and try to hide any sign of tears. "I got our dresses and this," Sammy pulls out a bottle of champagne form behind her, just what I need right now. "Let's get this party started" she hands me a champagne glass. She opens the bottle and Champagne spills all over "To a great night and a better year" she yells. I lift my glass for her to fill it up. I have nothing to toast for so I just drink to drown my feelings.
Two champagne bottles later we are finally dressed and completely buzz. I'm wearing a form fitting strapless gold sequin dress that stop right before my knees. My makeup is on the natural side, my hair is out thanks to Sammy who insisted me to get it straighten, and I decided to wear no jewelry the dress is all the accessory I need. I got to admit I look fucking hot. If Gabe would see me in this dress he would have a heart attack. "Is that a smile?" Sammy ask sneaking up on me. "I'm not sure" I say as I recover my poker face. Sammy looks like she wants to kick her own ass for saying something. I reach for the champagne bottle to pour me out a drink. "Prima, I-" I hand her a glass interrupting her sentence "More champagne?" I give her my fake smile.