This spot is perfect I can't see no one and most importantly no one can see me. All I see from here is the ocean and the open sky. It's really beautiful and peaceful out here I've never seen the stars light up like they are tonight. They look so happy and bubbly even their reflection on the water sparkles. Gabe would of loved it out here. "This is for you handsome" I pour out some champagne and lift it up in the air. Why am I even using a glass? I am the only one who is drinking from this bottle anyways. As I reflect on the pass year I can honestly say this has been the best and worst year of my life. In one hand I met and fall in love with the most amazing man, I made some extraordinary friends, and I even lost my virginity, which I honestly thought was never going to happen. I was actually happy with my life. Salute for that I bring the bottle to my mouth and take a big gulp.
On the other hand I got kidnapped, dragged to the middle of no where, and the only man I have ever loved is dead. If you ask me the bad overcomes the good. I'm not saluting to that I'm just drinking. Is it really better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all? If you would of asked me before all of this I would of said yes it's worth it but now I would have to rethink my answer. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't give up the time I had with Gabe even if that meant getting rid of this pain. I've never been happier than when I was with him and to be honest I don't think I'll ever be that happy again. The sound of some one climbing up the stairs catches my attention it better not be Raul or Mark. I grab the bottle from it's neck ready to throw it at some one's head. But first I take a last sip just in case I have to use it.
Thank god it's neither one of them it's just a waiter. Maybe Nikki send him to check up on me it better not be the same rude as waiter as before because I will push him off. "I'm fine you can go away now" I wave my hand in the air dismissing him as I turn around to stare at the ocean. A midnight swim isn't sounding so bad right about now. I hear the waiter's steps getting closer instead of farther and before I know it he is sitting right next to me. I slide to the right putting some space between us. "If you're going to stay there is a no talking policy" I inform him. I'm tired of fighting everyone I have no more energy left in me. It really is a beautiful night the full moon looks larger than life up in the sky it lights up half the night. "What a beautiful night" I say as I drink from the bottle. The waiter just nods his head in agreement. He must think I'm some kind of freak because instead of being inside partying like everyone else I'm out here alone. "You know I wasn't always so anti social," I pick on the label of the bottle I don't know why I feel the need to explain myself to him "but shit happens". I take a sip from the bottle trying to get rid of the knot that is forming in my throat. The waiter extends his hand and with out saying a word snatch the bottle right out of my hands. "I put my mouth-" I didn't even get the chance to finish my sentence when he bought the bottle to his mouth. My nose wrinkles as I watch him drink from my bottle.