"Hi Muffin" he answers and more tears start to fall. At this point I don't know why am I even crying.
"It was you" I say it more as a statement than a question.
"What's wrong Jane? I swear I don't know anything" he quickly adds with worry in his voice. I clear my throat trying to get rid of my emotions "You're the Muffin man?".
He let's out a small breath of relief "How did you find out?".
I knew it was him! I told him that I was listing to the radio and how I thought it was him but then confirm it when he talked about the old couples.
"I saw them too and all I keep thinking about was how I wanted some one to look at me like he looked at her and now I know I had it all along" I finish with new sets of tears. Oh god I need to get myself under control. I wish he was in front of me right now so I could jump into his arms.
"After I was release from the hospital I searched for you all over New York and each time I came up empty handed. I tried to go back to work the next day but my Captain wouldn't allow me. I knew you weren't in New York but I thought you were some where in the country. So I came up with the radio plan. I hoped that you would hear the song and realized I was alive and searching for you I didn't use our names because I didn't want any one to know I was alive" he finish.
All along I thought I was alone in this but he has always been there. "I'm sorry" I say through my stuffy nose.
"Sorry?" he ask confuse "for what?".
I don't even know where to start. I'm sorry for dragging him into this mess, for not having the strength to walk away from him when I had the chance, for not telling him the truth from the start, for almost getting him killed, for getting him shot. There is so much I'm sorry for I can't even name them all. "For everything" I settle for that.
"Jane there is nothing for you to be sorry about none of that was your fault so stop blaming yourself. You are the best thing that has ever happen to me. I don't regret nothing do you?" he ask.
There is a lot of things I regret and that I'm sorry for but being with him is not one.
"Of course not you mean everything to me when I thought you were dead my whole world came crushing down I even thought of killing myself," that's the first time I ever said that out loud I can't believe I just admit that to him out of all people "but I stayed strong because I promised you I was going to take care of Sophia". I wrap my arm around my waist trying to get some comfort wishing it was his arms around me instead of mines.