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"I might as well 'gild refined gold.' I know it: you request is

granted then--for the time. I will remand the order I despatched to

my banker. But you have not yet asked for anything; you have prayed

a gift to be withdrawn: try again."

"Well then, sir, have the goodness to gratify my curiosity, which is

much piqued on one point."

He looked disturbed. "What? what?" he said hastily. "Curiosity is

a dangerous petition: it is well I have not taken a vow to accord

every request--"

"But there can be no danger in complying with this, sir."

"Utter it, Jane: but I wish that instead of a mere inquiry into,

perhaps, a secret, it was a wish for half my estate."

"Now, King Ahasuerus! What do I want with half your estate? Do you

think I am a Jew-usurer, seeking good investment in land? I would

much rather have all your confidence. You will not exclude me from

your confidence if you admit me to your heart?"

"You are welcome to all my confidence that is worth having, Jane;

but for God's sake, don't desire a useless burden! Don't long for

poison--don't turn out a downright Eve on my hands!"

"Why not, sir? You have just been telling me how much you liked to

be conquered, and how pleasant over-persuasion is to you. Don't you

think I had better take advantage of the confession, and begin and

coax and entreat--even cry and be sulky if necessary--for the sake

of a mere essay of my power?"

"I dare you to any such experiment. Encroach, presume, and the game

is up."

"Is it, sir? You soon give in. How stern you look now! Your

eyebrows have become as thick as my finger, and your forehead

resembles what, in some very astonishing poetry, I once saw styled,

'a blue-piled thunderloft.' That will be your married look, sir, I

suppose?"

"If that will be YOUR married look, I, as a Christian, will soon

give up the notion of consorting with a mere sprite or salamander.

But what had you to ask, thing,--out with it?"

"There, you are less than civil now; and I like rudeness a great

deal better than flattery. I had rather be a THING than an angel.

This is what I have to ask,--Why did you take such pains to make me

believe you wished to marry Miss Ingram?"

"Is that all? Thank God it is no worse!" And now he unknit his

black brows; looked down, smiling at me, and stroked my hair, as if

well pleased at seeing a danger averted. "I think I may confess,"

he continued, "even although I should make you a little indignant,

Jane--and I have seen what a fire-spirit you can be when you are

indignant. You glowed in the cool moonlight last night, when you

mutinied against fate, and claimed your rank as my equal. Janet,

by-the-bye, it was you who made me the offer."