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"Did I like his voice?" he asked.

"Very much." I was not fond of pampering that susceptible vanity of

his; but for once, and from motives of expediency, I would e'en

soothe and stimulate it.

"Then, Jane, you must play the accompaniment."

"Very well, sir, I will try."

I did try, but was presently swept off the stool and denominated "a

little bungler." Being pushed unceremoniously to one side--which

was precisely what I wished--he usurped my place, and proceeded to

accompany himself: for he could play as well as sing. I hied me to

the window-recess. And while I sat there and looked out on the

still trees and dim lawn, to a sweet air was sung in mellow tones

the following strain:-

"The truest love that ever heart

Felt at its kindled core,

Did through each vein, in quickened start,

The tide of being pour.

Her coming was my hope each day,

Her parting was my pain;

The chance that did her steps delay

Was ice in every vein.

I dreamed it would be nameless bliss,

As I loved, loved to be;

And to this object did I press

As blind as eagerly.

But wide as pathless was the space

That lay our lives between,

And dangerous as the foamy race

Of ocean-surges green.

And haunted as a robber-path

Through wilderness or wood;

For Might and Right, and Woe and Wrath,

Between our spirits stood.

I dangers dared; I hindrance scorned;

I omens did defy:

Whatever menaced, harassed, warned,

I passed impetuous by.

On sped my rainbow, fast as light;

I flew as in a dream;

For glorious rose upon my sight

That child of Shower and Gleam.

Still bright on clouds of suffering dim

Shines that soft, solemn joy;

Nor care I now, how dense and grim

Disasters gather nigh.

I care not in this moment sweet,

Though all I have rushed o'er

Should come on pinion, strong and fleet,

Proclaiming vengeance sore: Though haughty Hate should strike me down,

Right, bar approach to me,

And grinding Might, with furious frown,

Swear endless enmity.

My love has placed her little hand

With noble faith in mine,

And vowed that wedlock's sacred band

Our nature shall entwine.

My love has sworn, with sealing kiss,

With me to live--to die;

I have at last my nameless bliss.

As I love--loved am I!"

He rose and came towards me, and I saw his face all kindled, and his

full falcon-eye flashing, and tenderness and passion in every

lineament. I quailed momentarily--then I rallied. Soft scene,

daring demonstration, I would not have; and I stood in peril of

both: a weapon of defence must be prepared--I whetted my tongue:

as he reached me, I asked with asperity, "whom he was going to marry

now?"