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"How late it grows!" I said. "I will run down to the gates: it is

moonlight at intervals; I can see a good way on the road. He may be

coming now, and to meet him will save some minutes of suspense."

The wind roared high in the great trees which embowered the gates;

but the road as far as I could see, to the right hand and the left,

was all still and solitary: save for the shadows of clouds crossing

it at intervals as the moon looked out, it was but a long pale line,

unvaried by one moving speck.

A puerile tear dimmed my eye while I looked--a tear of

disappointment and impatience; ashamed of it, I wiped it away. I

lingered; the moon shut herself wholly within her chamber, and drew

close her curtain of dense cloud: the night grew dark; rain came

driving fast on the gale.

"I wish he would come! I wish he would come!" I exclaimed, seized

with hypochondriac foreboding. I had expected his arrival before

tea; now it was dark: what could keep him? Had an accident

happened? The event of last night again recurred to me. I

interpreted it as a warning of disaster. I feared my hopes were too

bright to be realised; and I had enjoyed so much bliss lately that I

imagined my fortune had passed its meridian, and must now decline.

"Well, I cannot return to the house," I thought; "I cannot sit by

the fireside, while he is abroad in inclement weather: better tire

my limbs than strain my heart; I will go forward and meet him."

I set out; I walked fast, but not far: ere I had measured a quarter

of a mile, I heard the tramp of hoofs; a horseman came on, full

gallop; a dog ran by his side. Away with evil presentiment! It was

he: here he was, mounted on Mesrour, followed by Pilot. He saw me;

for the moon had opened a blue field in the sky, and rode in it

watery bright: he took his hat off, and waved it round his head. I

now ran to meet him.

"There!" he exclaimed, as he stretched out his hand and bent from

the saddle: "You can't do without me, that is evident. Step on my

boot-toe; give me both hands: mount!"

I obeyed: joy made me agile: I sprang up before him. A hearty

kissing I got for a welcome, and some boastful triumph, which I

swallowed as well as I could. He checked himself in his exultation

to demand, "But is there anything the matter, Janet, that you come

to meet me at such an hour? Is there anything wrong?"