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"Yes."

"My aunt, consequently?"

He bowed.

"My uncle John was your uncle John? You, Diana, and Mary are his

sister's children, as I am his brother's child?"

"Undeniably."

"You three, then, are my cousins; half our blood on each side flows

from the same source?"

"We are cousins; yes."

I surveyed him. It seemed I had found a brother: one I could be

proud of,--one I could love; and two sisters, whose qualities were

such, that, when I knew them but as mere strangers, they had

inspired me with genuine affection and admiration. The two girls,

on whom, kneeling down on the wet ground, and looking through the

low, latticed window of Moor House kitchen, I had gazed with so

bitter a mixture of interest and despair, were my near kinswomen;

and the young and stately gentleman who had found me almost dying at

his threshold was my blood relation. Glorious discovery to a lonely

wretch! This was wealth indeed!--wealth to the heart!--a mine of

pure, genial affections. This was a blessing, bright, vivid, and

exhilarating;--not like the ponderous gift of gold: rich and

welcome enough in its way, but sobering from its weight. I now

clapped my hands in sudden joy--my pulse bounded, my veins thrilled.

"Oh, I am glad!--I am glad!" I exclaimed.

St. John smiled. "Did I not say you neglected essential points to

pursue trifles?" he asked. "You were serious when I told you you

had got a fortune; and now, for a matter of no moment, you are

excited."

"What can you mean? It may be of no moment to you; you have sisters

and don't care for a cousin; but I had nobody; and now three

relations,--or two, if you don't choose to be counted,--are born

into my world full-grown. I say again, I am glad!"

I walked fast through the room: I stopped, half suffocated with the

thoughts that rose faster than I could receive, comprehend, settle

them:- thoughts of what might, could, would, and should be, and that

ere long. I looked at the blank wall: it seemed a sky thick with

ascending stars,--every one lit me to a purpose or delight. Those

who had saved my life, whom, till this hour, I had loved barrenly, I

could now benefit. They were under a yoke,--I could free them:

they were scattered,--I could reunite them: the independence, the

affluence which was mine, might be theirs too. Were we not four?

Twenty thousand pounds shared equally would be five thousand each,

justice--enough and to spare: justice would be done,--mutual

happiness secured. Now the wealth did not weigh on me: now it was

not a mere bequest of coin,--it was a legacy of life, hope,

enjoyment.