Jane Eyre - Page 77/412

This document remained locked in my drawer all day: after tea, I

asked leave of the new superintendent to go to Lowton, in order to

perform some small commissions for myself and one or two of my

fellow-teachers; permission was readily granted; I went. It was a

walk of two miles, and the evening was wet, but the days were still

long; I visited a shop or two, slipped the letter into the post-

office, and came back through heavy rain, with streaming garments,

but with a relieved heart.

The succeeding week seemed long: it came to an end at last,

however, like all sublunary things, and once more, towards the close

of a pleasant autumn day, I found myself afoot on the road to

Lowton. A picturesque track it was, by the way; lying along the

side of the beck and through the sweetest curves of the dale: but

that day I thought more of the letters, that might or might not be

awaiting me at the little burgh whither I was bound, than of the

charms of lea and water.

My ostensible errand on this occasion was to get measured for a pair

of shoes; so I discharged that business first, and when it was done,

I stepped across the clean and quiet little street from the

shoemaker's to the post-office: it was kept by an old dame, who

wore horn spectacles on her nose, and black mittens on her hands.

"Are there any letters for J.E.?" I asked.

She peered at me over her spectacles, and then she opened a drawer

and fumbled among its contents for a long time, so long that my

hopes began to falter. At last, having held a document before her

glasses for nearly five minutes, she presented it across the

counter, accompanying the act by another inquisitive and mistrustful

glance--it was for J.E.

"Is there only one?" I demanded.

"There are no more," said she; and I put it in my pocket and turned

my face homeward: I could not open it then; rules obliged me to be

back by eight, and it was already half-past seven.

Various duties awaited me on my arrival. I had to sit with the

girls during their hour of study; then it was my turn to read

prayers; to see them to bed: afterwards I supped with the other

teachers. Even when we finally retired for the night, the

inevitable Miss Gryce was still my companion: we had only a short

end of candle in our candlestick, and I dreaded lest she should talk

till it was all burnt out; fortunately, however, the heavy supper

she had eaten produced a soporific effect: she was already snoring

before I had finished undressing. There still remained an inch of

candle: I now took out my letter; the seal was an initial F.; I

broke it; the contents were brief.