In the meantime, give my love to Hugh, and say to this dear friend all
that I might have said for myself, if I had been near him. But take
care that his recovery is not retarded by anxiety for me. Pray keep him
in ignorance of the doubts and fears with which I am now looking at the
future. If I was not so fond of my husband, I should be easier in my
mind. This sounds contradictory, but I believe you will understand it.
For a while, my dear, good-bye.