Way Down East - A Romance of New England Life - Page 26/80

In the first bitterness of regret, Mrs. Moore imagined that in

selfishly abandoning herself to her own grief, she must have neglected

her daughter, and her remorse knew no bounds. Again and again she

bitterly denounced herself for giving way to sorrow that now seemed

light and trivial, compared to the black hopelessness of the present.

Anna's mind wandered in her delirium, and she would talk of her

marriage and beg Sanderson to let her tell her mother all. Then she

would fancy that she was again with Mrs. Tremont and she would go

through the pros and cons of the whole affair. Should she marry him

secretly, as he wished? Yes, it would be better for poor mama, who

needed so many comforts, but was it right? And then the passionate

appeal to Sanderson. Couldn't he realize her position?---"Yes, darling, it is all right. Mother understands," the heartbroken

woman would repeat over and over again, but the sick girl could not

hear.

And so the days wore on, till at last Anna's wandering mind turned back

to earth, and again took up the burden of living. There was nothing

for her to tell her mother. In her delirium she had told all, and the

mother was prepared to bravely face the worst for her daughter's sake.

The terrible blow brought mother and daughter closer together than they

had been for years. In their prosperity, the young girl had been busy

with her governess and instructors, while her mother had made a fine

art of her invalidism and spent the greater part of her time at health

resorts, baths and spas.

By mutual consent, they decided that it was better not to attempt to

seek redress from Sanderson. Anna's letters, written during her

convalescence, had remained unanswered, and any effort to force him,

either by persuasion or process of law, to right the terrible wrong he

had done, was equally repulsive to both mother and daughter.

Mrs. Standish Tremont was also equally out of the question, as a court

of final appeal. She had been so piqued with Anna for interfering with

her most cherished plans regarding Sanderson and Grace Tremont, that

Anna knew well enough that there would only be further humiliation in

seeking mercy from that quarter.

So mother and daughter prepared to face the inevitable alone. To this

end, Mrs. Moore sold the last of her jewelry. She had kept it,

thinking that Anna would perhaps marry some day and appreciate the

heirlooms; but such a contingent was no longer to be considered, and

the jewelry, and the last of the family silver, were sent to be sold,

together with every bit of furniture with which they could dispense,

and mother and daughter left the little cottage in Waltham, and went to

the town of Belden, New Hampshire,--a place so inconceivably remote,

that there was little chance of any of their former friends being able

to trace them, even if they should desire to do so.