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"What! you will not even grant a repentant man your friendship, Miss

Black?" asked Craven, with a sorrowful smile.

"I wish you well, Mr. Le Noir. I wish you a good and, therefore, a

happy life; but I cannot give you friendship, for that means a great

deal."

"Oh, I see how it is! You cannot give your friendship where you cannot

give your esteem. Is it not so?"

"Yes," said Capitola; "that is it; yet I wish you so well that I wish

you might grow worthy of higher esteem than mine."

"You are thinking of my--yes, I will not shrink from characterizing

that conduct as it deserves--my unpardonable violence toward Clara.

Miss Black, I have mourned that sin from the day that I was hurried

into it until this. I have bewailed it from the very bottom of my

heart," said Craven, earnestly, fixing his eyes with an expression of

perfect truthfulness upon those of Capitola.

"I am glad to hear you say so," said Cap.

"Miss Black, please hear this in palliation--I would not presume to say

in defense--of my conduct: I was driven to frenzy by a passion of

contending love and jealousy as violent and maddening as it was unreal

and transient. But that delusive passion has subsided, and among the

unmerited mercies for which I have to be thankful is that, in my

frantic pursuit of Clara Day, I was not cursed with success! For all

the violence into which that frenzy hurried me I have deeply repented.

I can never forgive myself, but--cannot you forgive me?"

"Mr. Le Noir, I have nothing for which to forgive you. I am glad that

you have repented toward Clara and I wish you well, and that is really

all that I can say."

"I have deserved this and I accept it," said Craven, in a tone so

mournful that Capitola, in spite of all her instincts, could not choose

but pity him.

He rode on, with his pale face, downcast eyes and melancholy

expression, until they reached a point at the back of Hurricane Hall,

where their paths diverged.

Here Craven, lifting his hat and bowing profoundly, said, in a sad

tone: "Good evening, Miss Black," and, turning his horse's head, took the

path leading down into the Hidden Hollow.

"Poor young fellow! he must be very unhappy down in that miserable

place; but I can't help it. I wish he would go to Mexico with the

rest," said Cap, as she pursued her way homeward.