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"I want you to give this to your guardian when he comes in. I want him

to understand. I say, you know, I'm going to love that old thoroughbred!

He's fine. Fancy his carrying me on his shoulders and eventually

bringing me up here among the clouds! Americans.... Are you all like

that? And you!"

Kitty's brain began to make preparations to alight, as it were. Cutty.

That gave her a touch of earth. She heard herself say faintly: "And what

about me?"

"You were brave and kind. To help an unknown, friendless beggar like

that, when you should have turned him over to the police! Makes me feel

a bit stuffy. They left me for dead. I wonder--"

"What?"

"If--it wouldn't have been just as well!"

"You mustn't talk like that! You just mustn't! You're with friends,

real friends, who want to help you all they can." And then with a little

flash of forced humour, because of the recurrent tightening in her

throat--"Who could be friendless, with all that money?" Instantly she

felt like biting her tongue. He would know nothing of the sad American

habit of trying to be funny to keep a wobbly situation on its legs.

He would interpret it as heartlessness. "I didn't mean that!" With the

Irish impulsiveness which generally weighs acts in retrospection, she

reached over and gripped his hand.

"I say, you two!" Hawksley closed his eyes for a second. "Wanting to

buck up a chap because you re that sort! All right. I'll stick it out!

You two! And I might be the worst scoundrel unhung!"

He drew her hand toward his lips, and Kitty had not the power to resist

him. She felt strangely theatrical, a character in a play; for American

men, except in playful burlesque, never kissed their women's hands. The

moment he released the hand the old wave of hysteria rolled over her.

She must fly. The desire to weep, little fool that she was! was breaking

through her defences. Loneliness. The two of them all alone but for

Cutty. She rose, crushing the wallet in her hand.

Ah, never had she needed that darling mother of hers so much as

now. Tears did not seem to afford relief when one shed them into

handkerchiefs and pillows. But on that gentle bosom, to let loose this

brimming flood, to hear the tender voice consoling!

"Oh, I say, now! Please!" she heard Johnny Two-Hawks cry out.

But she rushed on blindly, knocking against the door jamb and almost

upsetting the nurse, who was returning. Somehow she managed to reach the

living room, glad it was dark. Alter sundry reaching about she found

the divan and flung herself upon it. What would he think? What would the

nurse think? That Kitty Conover had suddenly gone stark, raving crazy!

And now that she was in the dark, alone, the desire to weep passed over

and she lay quietly with her face buried in the pillow. But not for

long.