How could I ever live with myself if something happened to her or Kevin, because of something I'd done? It was going to be a hard decision any way I looked at it. I heard a noise and I stood up and turned to see Kevin.
He looked at me for a long moment and then he continued on into the room to a worn out and way outdated desktop computer. He turned it on and sat in the chair in front of it and started to play a game. Anna came up and turned the screen off. He looked up at her and then went to turn it back on, but she stopped him.
"Kevin turn in your seat."
He obeyed and faced me. There didn't look to be anything wrong with him physically although he was probably more like seven years old than six. Anna came and stood beside me and took my hand.
"Remember what trust means Kevin?"
The boy nodded.
"This is Mr. Tyre. Mommy trusts Mr. Tyre." She said holding up our clasped hands as she said those words.
She let go and led Kevin up to me.
"Show mommy that you trust Mr. Tyre, Kevin."
The boy's emotionless face glanced up and stared at me for a moment and then the boy placed his hand in mine and I gently closed my fingers over his.
I heard Anna breathe out a sigh of relief, "Good! Whatever Mr. Tyre says, you do it, just like you do for mommy and Mrs. Reed understand?"
The boy nodded.
"You can go back and play your game now." Anna said softly and the boy did just that.
He gazed at the simple game that came up on the screen and began to play it and I realized that was how he relaxed. Anna came to me and laid her head against my chest and I brought my arms around to hold her. The boy looked from the screen to us and pointed at us.
"He wants something."
Anna glanced over at Kevin, "He wants to know what we're doing."
Anna slipped her arms around me and said, "Kevin this is what love looks like."
Her words and the feel of her arms settled the dilemma I had been going through. It would be two rings and a promise and may God help me keep them safe from my past! I so wanted to be a part of a family. This family!
The boy turned back to the computer screen, but Anna's arms stayed where they were and so did mine. We stood there for quite a while.