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James nodded grimly.

"I said something I shouldn't have as I watched those people die. I asked Tyre, 'I thought you said I was safe?' I was still too caught up in the moment of how I had almost died to comprehend in that moment that I wasn't the target, but that Tyre was instead. He said as much, as I watched him putting stuff together in his mind almost knowing what he intended to do before he did it. He kissed me and told me he loved me and then he ran away. I understand what he was thinking. I know he just wants to keep me and Kevin safe, but I don't want to be safe! Truly it's impossible to ever be safe from any form of mishap. You could be nothing but safe conscious and still be taken out by a drunken driver or a falling meteor. I want to find Tyre and have the life it was intended for us to have together! I do not want to live in fear, but neither do I want to live life alone! I've weighed the risks. Yes, if Kevin and I are with Tyre then we are more in the line of fire, but it's a risk I'm willing to make in order to experience the life I know we could have together. It's worth the risk and there are no guarantees with either route that is chosen. I want to tell him that to his face! Please if you can will you tell me where he is?" Anna asked imploringly.

James's face was nothing but kindness, "Like you said there is a higher risk with being together. I've had to face that reality in my own life. But you're right living life to the fullest always comes first otherwise you might live physically longer, but not really experience what living should be about. Tyre is a very emotional kind of guy believe it or not. Sometimes he lets himself act on something in the emotion of the moment before he's considered all the angles. I think he'll come to the same conclusion as you have, even as Lisa and I have."

"Why are you telling me this?" Anna asked in concern.

James looked down and then back up, "Anna I'm not sure I can find Tyre for you, but I'm going to try don't fear! Why I said what I did is to give you hope that he might figure things out and return on his own."

Anna shook her head no, "Even if he did figure it out he would be too embarrassed to come back, because he would think he had failed me and that I hated him now. He's fragile like that emotionally. He really doesn't think anyone can truly love him. He won't come back, not on his own!"