What he couldn’t deal with was what happened next.
And it wasn’t her warning as she slid out of bed and walked toward the bathroom, “By the way, Sebring, so you don’t waste time or effort, I’m never going to submit to you.” Something, if he’d had the ability in that moment to pay closer attention, he would take as the challenge it was.
No, it wasn’t that.
It was her miscalculating her position when she turned on the bathroom lights.
She hadn’t meant for him to see.
But when she turned on the lights, at what he saw, it hit him like a bullet.
It was her that plunged the room into darkness that night when he’d started taking off her clothes.
And it was always her who shifted, writhed, pulled away, repositioned them if he ever got close to getting his eyes on her back.
Or touching her there.
So he knew it was a miscalculation when he caught sight of her when she flipped on the light before she closed the door because she didn’t want him to see.
Fuck, the woman was usually dressed before his dick stopped being hard.
And right then, when he got his eyes on her back, that was when he went under, lungs filling with water, sinking like a dead weight, knowing he’d have to fight to resurface.
Careful of this guy, Turner’s voice from memory suddenly slammed into his head. He does not fuck around when he gets hold of someone. He’s pissed and done with you, before you know it, you got a bullet in your brain. He needs somethin’ from you or he feels like playin’, he likes to burn.
To burn.
To fucking burn.
Nick stared at the door not seeing it.
He also didn’t see Turner in his memory during one of the many briefings he’d had with Nick and Hettie.
He didn’t even see the photos in that file of Shade and Harkin’s handiwork on others.
No.
Nick stared at the door seeing the same thing he saw in those photos but on Olivia.
The pink, melted mess of scars at the small of Olivia’s back and her upper hips.
He likes to burn.
Christ, was that some terrible accident she’d endured?
Or had her father burned her?
They knew nothing about her. No one did. If she didn’t exist out in the open, she’d be Deacon before he’d met his Cassidy.
She’d be a ghost.
But she did exist out in the open. She drove to work. She drove home. She went out shopping. She had her nails done. She took a Pilates class. She went to dinner or lunch with her mother. Also with her sister. She went to the club. She occasionally caught a film, but always by herself. She also didn’t hesitate to go to dinner by herself. Her sister visited her house. She visited her sister’s. He’d seen her with Gill Harkin. Tom Leary. Eli Cook. Other members of her crew.
But never her father.
Nick had been surveilling her on and off for four years and they’d kept tabs on her before, when he was working with Hettie and Turner.
He’d never seen Olivia with her father.
Not once.
He’d also never seen her smile.
Not at lunch with her mother, occasions that she hid (poorly) were obligatory. There was no love between those two. There was nothing between those two.
Not even when she was with her sister, someone it appeared she held some affection for (if not much, or if it was, she wasn’t overt about it).
No smiles.
Definitely no laughs.
Nothing.
Made of stone.
But not made of stone.
She didn’t like smartass men or sarcasm, hugged without her arms, snuggled, was offended he’d think she had an STD, used words like “ill-suited,” was absolutely going to submit to him and get off on it, and she was capable of making a joke about him talking to the ceiling.
And she’d smiled into his throat.
And against his lips.
He’d felt it.
He’d felt them all.
Last, she’d been burned.
Badly.
Burns that were signatures of her father’s favorite method of torture, something Nick knew for certain because he’d seen it in a goddamned FBI file.
That was no accident and it was no coincidence.
Her father had burned her.
Her father had scarred his youngest daughter.
But why?
And now she lived like a ghost but out in the open. Not like her sister who could loosen up and definitely enjoyed her life.
No.
Nick was the first man she’d fucked more than once in four years.
Again, why?
Both women were in their thirties, and as far as anyone knew, neither of them had a steady man in their life, nor did it look like that was imminent for their future.
And again…
Why?
A mystery.
She had been before, he knew it, so did everyone.
But his game was not solving the mystery of Olivia Shade so when he went into it, he didn’t care she was a mystery.
Now, that burn…he did.
“Fuck,” he whispered into the dark.
The bathroom door opened and it opened after she turned out the light.
He watched her shadow walk to the bed.
There was an unusual hesitancy in her soft voice when she said, “I think I should go home, Sebring.”
His response was to push up, reach across the bed, tag her hand and yank her into it.
She fell hard on him.
He didn’t give a fuck.
He tangled his limbs in hers and both of them in the covers.
“Shut up and go to sleep, Shade.”
She shut up but her tense body told him she was nowhere near sleep.
He tested her, sliding his hand down her spine.
Before he could hit scar, she rolled to her back, taking him with her so he was on top, both his hands trapped under her.