I waited until she quieted down and then I sensed when she wanted free. I let her back, but I held onto her shoulders, as I gazed into her watery eyes.
"I've felt as you do. I understand, but I have given up what I can't understand to fulfill the purpose my Creator has for me. I don't focus on understanding, at least I try not to. I focused on doing what God has next for me to accomplish and the journey of my life goes on and I experience peace knowing that my life lines up with God's will and He keeps me healthy, sane, and even willingly eager to continue doing good for the Kingdom of God. The peace I've experienced in my journey can be yours too Maria."
"I don't think I'm made of the same material that you are Elon." Maria said softly.
"Don't underestimate yourself Maria. I know I certainly have underestimated you. I'm nothing special Maria. I'm created of God and maintained by God. All I have supplied to the equation is my will to choose. I have chosen the path God set out for me and I have been faithful to keep to it and He has done with me according to His will. He can do the same with you if you're willing to let Him. Now let's go get some dinner."
I turned her and pushed her towards the door, as I grabbed up a shirt along the way.
This softer and completely unexpected side of Maria was fast undoing every mental block I had set up to halt my growing infatuation with her. She had a far richer personality than I had ever imagined. Why was God exposing me to this woman, when He full well knew what a temptation she was to me not just in the physical, but now also in all the emotional planes of my consciousness?
"God help me!" I whispered.
"What did you say?"
"Nothing."