Breathe into Me - Page 34/64

“Thanks,” I squeaked and swiftly turned back toward my dresser to dig out some clothes, because the fact that I was only wearing a thin piece of cloth over my entire body and the way my body was humming all over right now, was not a good combination. I needed to be fully clothed and about five more feet away from Kane so I could clear my head.

Without so much as another word to Kane, I grabbed the first articles of clothing that my hands touched, not caring if they even matched. I rushed off to my bathroom, slamming the door in my haste.

When I was safely in the bathroom, I leaned back against the door and was finally able to catch my breath. That was intense. I had never had anyone make my body feel like that before and he hadn’t even really touched me, but it felt like he had. It felt as if every surface of my skin was on fire and dipped in ice at the same time. And I don’t even want to get into the tingles that were happening, well … everywhere. I had never been so turned on in my life and I don’t even know what I had really been turned on about. Didn’t he have to at least touch me to do that? God, I sounded like a complete moron. Could it be any more obvious that I knew absolutely nothing about sex?

I walked over to the sink, gripping the sides for support. I needed to get a hold of myself before I embarrassed myself even further. I splashed some cool water on my face and applied just a touch of makeup; I needed to try to cover the flush in my face just a little.

After I was finally dressed in actual clothes, I slowly turned the knob to the door and crept back inside my dorm. Kane was still there on my bed, but this time he was starting down at his cell with a smile on his face. That damn cell again.

I tried my best to not let it get to me, but dammit, I was curious who he was always talking to on that thing that made him smile so much. Sensing my presence, he looked up at me. I shyly sat down on the bed next to him and he surprised me by holding his phone out where I could look at the screen. There was a text message pulled up. My first thought was that he had texted on of his friends to let them know what a complete spaz I was, but the contact name at the top read “Maw.”

“She recently got a cell and now she’s trying to learn how to text. It’s funny as shit,” he laughed.

I read through some of the messages … well actually I’m not sure you could really call them messages because most were random letters or half words. Finally at the bottom she did manage to get out one full sentence—“Can you hear me?”

I busted out laughing, I felt bad for laughing at his grandmother like that but he was right, it was pretty funny.

“I don’t know why she doesn’t just call me. She says she wants to keep up with the times and be able to text, but if it’s going to always be like this I think I’m going to have to step in at some point and put a stop to the madness.”

I loved watching him talk about his grandparents. You could tell he loved them and respected them. It made me wish I had known my grandparents better. I never knew my dad’s parents. He never really talked about them much but my mom had told me that my grandfather had died when my dad was young, and that my grandmother had died shortly after they were married.

I did get to meet my grandparent’s on my mom’s side once, though. I don’t remember it because I was a baby but there were pictures of them holding me. They lived across the country and had also died before I was even old enough to remember. That’s why after my mom’s death I was sent to live with Jessi since I didn’t have any other immediate family.

“She’s pretty excited to meet you this weekend.” Kane bumped my shoulder, reminding me that I was in fact going to his grandparents’ house this weekend to watch the game. I guess it was a big tradition for everyone in their neighborhood to show up for a big cookout and watch the game there. At least I would have Jessi with me. She was going with Landon, who apparently never misses it or the chance to eat Kane’s grandma’s deserts.

“Have they met a lot of your, um, friends?” I didn’t really know what to call us. Sure we were holding hands and kissing and spending more time together than ever, but he had not officially said what we were, and I was so new to this I honestly wasn’t sure. I would have been considering him my boyfriend but I knew that guys didn’t like to label things so quickly, so it was probably best if I just sat back and played it by ear until he was ready to make that decision.

He took my hand is his. “No, no they haven’t. I really don’t even take anyone there, well, besides Landon, and he has been my best friend since we were in diapers. I kind of got stuck with him since our parents had been best friends since college,” he laughed and I knew he was joking about getting stuck with Landon. They were as close, if not closer than Jessi and I.

“But no, to answer your question I don’t take people to meet my grandparent’s unless they are special … and you, you are more special than anyone I have ever met. I have never met a more awkwardly cute, yet stunningly beautiful girl in all my life. You’re smart and funny, and ridiculously sexy and you don’t even know it.” He lightly placed his hand on my cheek and I immediately leaned into his touch as though I had known it all my life.

“You, Kelsey, are special. You are so strong and so brave. There will never be another person in this world that would ever compare to you, and I can’t believe you actually choose to waste your time with a loser like me. I won’t argue about it though, because now that I have you in my life I can’t imagine going through every day without you. I’m a selfish bastard, Kelsey. There is probably someone out there who would be better for you, give you all the things you deserve but I just can’t let that happen. I want you. I want you to be mine. The thought of you with someone else is something I honestly can’t even stomach. I know we have only known each other a short time and people might think we are crazy or rushing this, but this feels right. It feels as though I had been unknowingly searching for something and then that day in the café when I saw you, it all clicked. I didn’t know you, hell I didn’t even know your name, but I knew that I was drawn to you and wanted to know all about this beautiful stranger with the silky brown hair and warm eyes.”

I covered his hand with mine and looked deeply into his eyes. “Honestly I feel the same way. I have never had someone I didn’t know consume me the way you have. My life has been so messed up. I never wanted to let anyone else in. Never thought I actually would, but from the moment I met you there was this pull that I couldn’t deny. I thought it was just me, and that I was just having some serious crushing issues because, let’s face it, you could honestly have your choice of anyone on this campus and you choose to spend your time with me. It’s so crazy to me, but like you said, I don’t want to question it. I know I want you in my life.”