The Chasing Diaries (Chasing 1.5) - Page 6/6

I got that he’s shocked and doesn’t like my decision, but for him to be angry at me?

I sighed and looked at Lucy and Toby, both stayed mum. “Lucy, if you were in Sienna’s situation would you want bloody f**king closure?” Blake asked Lucy.

“No, but Kyle’s her childhood sweetheart. He probably had a good reason for doing it. I cannot seem to think what that would be, though. Sienna, will it make you happy to go and see him? Clear the air or what of it?”

Yes, I would be. I needed to see Kyle. I needed to see it with my own eyes… that my future… the future that we had planned together was now gone. “Yes, most definitely.”

Toby stood up. “And there you have it, folks. Now, what do you say we focus on dinner before Sienna passes out from all this tension?” Chad intervened. I gave him a grateful smile.

When everyone else dropped it, I still felt Blake’s simmering anger. When they all went to start prepping for dinner, I excused myself to my room and Blake followed me. Without asking for permission, he invited himself in.

I was in bed when he entered. I turned over, my back facing him. I knew I might have sounded pathetic right now, but it was what I needed. I didn’t give a damn about anything else.

Kyle meant everything to me. I had to see him and that’s that.

I stilled when I felt the bed dip.

“I apologize if I was harsh, but you must understand that I am only concerned. I do not want to see you anymore hurt than you already are.” Blake touched my shoulder, but I didn’t turn around or said anything.

I’m tired. I’m emotionally battered, betrayed, cheated on and the list can go on. The last thing I needed was for Blake to be angry at me. I got where he’s coming from, but I don’t give a hoot. Not right now, I don’t.

Defeated, he sighed and kissed my head. “I’m staying here tonight. I’ll be outside when you need someone to talk to, okay? Get rest, my love.” He then got up and left the room.

My love. I knew British people used the word love with everyone, but coming from Blake, it simply gave me tingles. It was stupid, but it did. Now, I’m really pathetic. Here I was mourning the loss of my relationship and I got tingles from my friend.

Seriously, Sienna, get a grip.

Sighing, I forced myself to sleep. I needed to recharge before I finally flew out to LA and confronted Kyle.

I didn’t know what will happen, but I was quite certain that my friends would be there for me… through thick and thin.